personal day

Today is one of those crazy hormonal days where nothing goes right. I can't even stand up right in my own eyes. I hate days that are like this. I woke up late had to help Heidi finish up her science project and give both dogs a bath go run an errand come back and do more house work and I have to get ready to go to a job that I hate. That is the negative story. Here is the way it should go

Because I am so blessed to have a nice home and comfortable sofa, I just didn't get up this morning until I had to. I had the joyous experience of spending time with my daughter and helping her finish her science project. Then I enjoyed bathing my dogs and making them look so cute and cuddle. Then I got to go and do a favour for a friend who really needed my help. Now I get to spend time making my house a clean enviroment for my wonderful family to relax and enjoy and to make the day extra special, I get to go to work and spend time serving my people out of my community helping them make their live easier. Then I get to come home go to bed and do it all again tomorrow.


God I wished that I would have a rosier look on life. I want to have the second outlook.

so much to say

but the words just don't flow. I guess you would say that I am speechless. That is funny seeing I know how much I talk. I am just beside myself and I have so much going on in my head right now that it is hard for me to pin point what is going on up there. hmm.

I know that I have decided that if I don't do film and plays here that I want do them where I am going so I have decided to be more proactive about that. I don't know what direction that I am going to take, but I am going to take some kind of direction. I am looking for a camerea that I can get. That is going to be the long process seeing that we are in the middle of trying to get re foccussed on debt reduction. Maybe I will figure out something.

well that is all that emptiess out at the moment.

Emotional roller coaster

Class was amazing tonight. I didn't know that it was possible to experience every emotion on the planet within 4 to 5 hours. insane and exhausting.

I was thinking on my drive home how that we are so judgemental. We judge people so much. We automatically think we know somebody just because they do this or that or wear this or act this way. It has dawned on me that I am guilty at judging the book by its cover thing.

been busy

This weekend was very busy. We (eric and I ) had a great time. I was off fri - sun. It was really nice to be off, to be home, It is pretty amazing how much work does effect my attitude. I was glad to be able to spend the weekend celebrating eric's birthday which happens to be today. Now I dont' feel bad about going to class tonight. Sunday was the best actually. We went out cache and stumbled upon this gorgeous spot in sipsy. I will post some pictures later. We are in the middle of the great computer change up. hee hee. pictures are unavailable at the moment. It was a good time. I am in the process of trying to prepare for class tonight It is a little frustrating in that I am struggling to find the right activity for class. All is well though.

Science fair is this week and we are trying to finish up heidi's volcano. Now I remeber why I didn't do the science fair much in school. I am sure we will survive.

Thus a day in the life of a wife and mother.

great short

This is a great short film that this guys shot. Cool stuff.


http://www.atomfilms.com/af/content/atom_1014

Hard working people get something nice!!!

It is nice to see hard working people win the lottery.


http://www.cnn.com/2006/US/02/22/powerball.winners/index.html

Ahhh Refreshing!!!!!!!!!!

That is what my acting class is. It is so cool to be around people who are into the same thing you are. We had a great class last night and learned a lot. Two of my friends just got back from vegas and they were telling me about this ride there. Check this out. The kids pipe in and say oh are we going there on vacation. oh I don't think so.

http://www.insanityride.com/


peace

Back to class

Tonight I am headed to class for the first time in about 1 month. I have really missed it a lot. I haven't been every week since November.

The girls got money for valentine's day to see Narnia at the movies. It was a pretty good movie. I must say. The little girl who plays lucy was really a good little actress. I didn't care for the white witch. I think that part could have been played a little better. Darker really. I guess for the kiddies sake, they refrained. The principal of the story is pretty moving all in all.

After the movie hauled it over to drum lessons after that.

well off to class.

It is time for cool change.

Yes sirs and madams. D day (D=Diet) tightness again. B day ( B= Budget) tightness again. I could go on, but I will spare you. I had to fight the urge at walmart all the good things to eat and remind myself that all that goodness only last a lifetime and whether this is cruel or not it is. I saw a man who was somewhat overweight eating a chicken tender from the deli and It snapped me to reality really quick . Do I want to ride around at walmart in a wheelchair at age 65 eating chicken or do I want to walk around anywhere doing whatever at 65. I opted on the later. So I will get through the rough week for starting on my diet strictly. I have gotten out of my routine due to vacations, christmas etc and never have gotten back into the swing of it all. I am going to try to be good so when I go to ny I can be a little bad.

I am looking for a new job that would allow me to work from home or something that will allow me to work only on the weedkay m-f. except tuesday I have class and would not want to give that up.

other than all that depressing news all is well.

My flight and hotel are confirmed

I got my flight confirmed to Ny Today. I will leave out on March 23 at 6:30 am. I have a 3 hour layover in Charolette and then on To NY. WooHoo.

M-I-C-K-E-Y M-O-U-S-E 

Being Truthful

That is what it is all about. Truth. In every aspect of our lives. Truth is religous, moral, and mostly hidden.

It is really hard to find someone in our day and time to be truthful. I believe the reason we can't be truthful is because most people can't handle the truth. If you speak the truth, most people don't want to except you because you are to harsh or just down right open. I wonder if Jesus was in the moment, truthful kind of guy. I see from scripture he probably was. Do not worry about tomorrow; tomorrow will take care of itself. Sufficient for a day is its own evil. Jesus lived truthful and he lived in the moment. I wished that I could be Jesus in the moment, truthful in the moment everyday of my life, I go against scripture and try to plan my whole life out and don't fit God into the equation most of the time. What if God tries to pull a Job on me tomorrow and I loose Everything what would I have to say about the moment prior to losing everything and the moment after. Would I be truthful in the moment or be worrying about what was going to happen next.

God please help me be truthful and in the moment with every step in this life I take.

Back into the saddle until I get thrown out again!

Our disney trip went great. The 10 Hour trip down was uneventful. We stopped about 7 hours into the trip and spent the night in Voldasta. Then got up the next morning. We found a geo cache and then we missed another one. We got to the disney property about 1:30. We checked in and even though we were early, our room was ready. We got every thing situated and then took a walk on the property. It was very nice then we got ready for dinner and went out with the whole family. My mom and dad, my sister and brother-in-law and her kids and all of my family. We went to Downtown disney's planet hollywood. Great food. Ok service. After dinner, we took a much needed walk and then headed to bed.

The next day was magic kingdom day. We had extra magic hours that day which meant we got to go in the park because we stayed on the disney property. All I can say is awesome. That is the best. We rode all the rides we really wanted to ride except space mountain and pirates of the caribean by 10:00. That is when toon town opened. we headed there and met the characters. Then we walked around the other side of the park and rod pirates of the caribean. Then it was back for Holly to ride with my sister and brother in law space mountain. Then we headed off to take a nap in the room. We got up around 5 and headed to mgm. ( I didn't care for this park so much. ) It was small. The things we did and saw were good, but way not worth the time or money. The muppet show and the star wars ride where fun.

We headed to animal kingdom the next day. It was ok. Again not as good as expected. When you think safari disney style you think wow, well it was not wow. it was more like oh that is cool. The show there were good though. The lion king show is a must see. Wow. It was a minature cirque de le sole. We went back to the room and Eric and I hit epcot alone and had a nice dinner and saw the fireworks Which were amazing.

The next day was our last day at disney. The girls wanted to go back and ride dumbo, tea cups and space mountain. WE decided to hit tomorrowland in disney as we didn't really do everything there. We had a great time. It was nice to go to the park on the last day with no agenda really. We had already ridden most everything and all of this was icing on the cake. Then it was to downtown disney for lunch at earl of sandwichs. Excellent place to eat in my opinion. Not to expensive either. Then it was to the room for a nap. Then we took the girls to epcot to see the fireworks. They were amazing. We ate at a chinese restraunt. Very nice.

The next morning we were off back home. We really didnt' want to come home, but we had to. WE made it home in about 11 hours. It was a nice trip. over all

Wendy, You just cleaned the toliet. What are you going to do next?

I am going to Disney world. lol. We leave tomorrow. It will be fun. The kids are so excited.

In other news, I will be leaving on March 23 to go NYC. Yes, that is right New York. My step mother in law will be teaching a conference there and has invited me to go with her. It is the perfect trip. It will be a riot that is for sure. My sister in law, Tara, will be meeting me there as well. It is a girls weekend that is for sure. The best part about the trip is the fact that my room and flight are taken care of and at no expense to me. Amazing.

On a spiritual note, I had a great weekend. I just love those times when things are confirmed to you through the Holy Spirit. It is pretty amazing to know that you are where God would have you and that he bears witness to you in several ways. It is awesome to know that when I wake up in the morning. I can look in the mirror and see myself as who I am and I don't have to go out in the world to impress anyone and I don't have to dress up inward self and be something I am not. God loves me just the way I am. Here is the devotion that I read this weekend. It is very much worth reading. My utmost for his highest web site.

If I am being poured out as a drink offering on the sacrifice and service of your faith, I am glad and rejoice with you all —Philippians 2:17
Are you willing to sacrifice yourself for the work of another believer— to pour out your life sacrificially for the ministry and faith of others? Or do you say, "I am not willing to be poured out right now, and I don’t want God to tell me how to serve Him. I want to choose the place of my own sacrifice. And I want to have certain people watching me and saying, ’Well done.’ "
It is one thing to follow God’s way of service if you are regarded as a hero, but quite another thing if the road marked out for you by God requires becoming a "doormat" under other people’s feet. God’s purpose may be to teach you to say, "I know how to be abased . . ." ( Philippians 4:12 ). Are you ready to be sacrificed like that? Are you ready to be less than a mere drop in the bucket-to be so totally insignificant that no one remembers you even if they think of those you served? Are you willing to give and be poured out until you are used up and exhausted— not seeking to be ministered to, but to minister? Some saints cannot do menial work while maintaining a saintly attitude, because they feel such service is beneath their dignity.

Amen

stuff to chat about

got up and got school stuff ready. I signed up with an agent in Nashville today and I ate to much and I didn't exercise. I have to at least do some yoga tonight before bed. I don't know what I am going to do with myself if I don't straighten up with my diet. well there is always tomorrow.

another one under my belt

Had another auditon in B-town today. It went well. I was first up and I took a look at the scene found my moment and went with it. They are having auditions again next weekend We will see how it goes.

All else is the samo samo house work etc.

audition

All went well yesterday. I went in and they gave me the following lines.

Oh, so you had a car accident. And you haven't called us yet? let me just> tell- things will get better as soon as you call us and let us starthelping> you with all the hassles.

or something like that I memorized it and then tried to find themoments in it and then the first time I did it, he seemed impressed. Then he gave me direction on what they were looking for. I said it like 3 more times andhe seemed happy. Then I went over to susan smith's office. She is an agent in Nashville and then that was it. The second time that I read through it. That is when he gave medirection, he said that I switched over to actor mode.

So we will see what happens all in all it was good times.

The family went with me to Nashville. We were going to tod od some geo caching, but we were missing a cable and decided to go to the music store and rei and just hang out. Eric was cracking me up last night. We had a good time.

Spent most of the morning cleaning up around the house and working on art projects. My mom came by with the girls and then it was back to cleaing. Still have more cleaning to do this afternoon, then off to work tonight. Atmosphere at work is not good really. Everybody thingks everybody could do more blah blah. Even in some cases it is true. I have my on opinions, but choose not to express them here. I just go in do my job and can be happy with that.

later

No class

I am saddend because I don't have class this week, but I do have 2 auditions that makes me feel a little better. I am still trying to decide about the 2nd audition. The experience of doing an audtion for film will be a good one. One audition is on Wednesday in Nashville and the other audition is on Saturday In B-town. I would love to see more film stuff come to North Alabama. We have such beautiful places here that would be great for films of all genre.

Work was crazy busy this weekend. I was glad when the weekend was over. I will be off from the depot tomorrow. We have drum lessons in Huntsville tomorrow afternoon. That is always fun. Heidi is improving most wonderfully.

thoughts

It has been a very busy week for me. Getting back in the grove still from the holidays. Trying to start this whole acting stuff is really keeping me busy. I meet with an agent on Wednesday next week up in Nashville. I hope to get some work from that.

I did go to the dr. I have contact dermatitist. uggh. I went Tuesday to the dr and have been on a steriod pack. I don't take meds because I am light weight, easy cheap date whatever you want to say. I don't drink alcohol for the same reason. My body doesn't handle stuff like that. So it has been an intresting week. Once I told the dr. about the last time I took meds, he cut my dose in half and so that made it easier. I would probably be dead had he not. So It is much better my neck that is. It has almost cleared completely.

Working at OD this weekend. 1 night down 3 more to go until I have another off day. Not fun, but things could be a whole lot worse. I hpe to find something new soon. I hope I get an acting job soon that would be nice.

well off to spend time with my super sexy honey.

Nice Weekend

We had a great weekend. The only bad part about it was that it ended with me having a an allergic reaction from something that we found in the woods. I guess it is some kind of skin allergy. If it doesn't get better soon, I will be going to the DR. There was a bad part, it ended.

On the acting note, Congrats to Philph Seymour Hoffman and Reese Witherspoon for winning Golden Globe awards. Also, I have been sending out headshots like crazy to try to begin my acting job journey. It is a tough road, but hey if it was easy everyone would be doing it right.

good day

It was a great day today. we went out geo caching. It was my first time and I found my first cache. I actually found 2. We took our dogs with us, and I think they enjoyed it. I had fun with them anyway. I so enjoy spending time most of all with my best friend. It is just nice to go out with no worries, agenda and just experience God's creation and it is amazing to have someone to share it with. We are so lucky to have each other. We may never be millionares, but we definitely are wealthy in our own way.

We are going to hang out with friends tonight and meet some new people. That should be fun.

Today while out caching, I learned a little history fact.
On June 14, 1821, Cotaco County name was changed to Morgan County.

3 day weekend!

It will be nice to have one of those.

We have been busy the last couple of days rearranging the girls room, our office and the playroom. It is kind of sad a little because our girls are growing up. They no longer wat baby dolls (they did keep a few) and barbie dolls. They want tv, gaming systems before you know it they will want a car. Holly is talking sleep over for her birthday. I feel like they are slipping away and will be off to college tomorrow. It is a weird feeling I have. Even though they are growing up, I feel fortunate because I am at peace to know that Eric and I still love and know each other. Our relationship is stronger than ever. We are learning God's grace everyday and how sweet it is. I am so glad that no matter if I am a new vessel or a broken one that God can use me. with all my cracks and boy do I have those.

Anyway the last couple of days have been very tiring.


On the acting note, I am really working on that southern draw of mine. I am trying to get another headshot date set up. I haven't made acting class this month due to work. Hopefully next week.

Finishing up progress reports for school, they are due this week. Classes in the morning and then 3 days off. Joy Joy. I am looking foward to spending some time with my hubby. Happy Birthday out to our good Friend Scott Henard. We love you.


Peace

back in the reality saddle

School has started back. Progress reports from last semester are due. Work is work. Trying to get some acting work. I am learning that from that aspect that it is a lot of work. Headshots, agents, lot of searching for auditions. It is not as easy as it sounds. Sure you can find all kind of theatre work around, but not much film. Unless you want to do work that would be unseemly.

But I am keeping my head held high and marching on. I believe if it is going to happen it will happen.

Oh, I am also looking for another job. We are preparing to put the girls in school next year and I am looking for a daytime job.

Acting classes are going great. I love this craft.


Otherwise, all is kicking right along. We are getting ready to go to Disney World with my parents and sister family. Then in April I will be going to New York. It will all be grand.


Big props go out to Jmo for dealing with me and my headshots. LONG STORY for another day.

me experiencing the dangers of snow on the way to the blue ridge mountains.

me riding in the blue ridge mountains 

beautiful waterfall from tellico in NC.

Acting Class and such

Well went back to class last night. I say went back because I missed the whole month of November. I had forgotten how much I enjoyed going. My teacher said I did good with my activity lesson. He also said that I need to work on being specific. Which I do. We did dirty santa and that was fun. Afterwards, we went to applebees's. That is Kathy and I did and chatted. I love that woman. She is an amazing person and friend.

Getting ready to go on our NC trip. That will be fun. I just hope that it doesn't snow until we get there and that it melts before we head home. Look for photos later.

Busy time for me right now. Lots of things going on. I want probalbly post until next week due to our trip.

Peace

Our new addition Maggie. She is a 10 week old beagle 

This is my screensaver. My 10 year old daughter took this photo at the local wilderness area. 

Busy, Busy, The holidays are here !!!!!!!

Well, the holidays are here in full swing. Craziness going on in retail during the holidays. People are so funny. I am going to be working Christmas eve. That will be fun. I will have to work from 7 till 5 probably. That will be fun times.At least I get to be off on Christmas Day and New years weekend.

We will be going out of town this weekend to N. C. to visit with Eric's dad and step mother. We are going to a resort. Fontana Damn village resort. It will be very outdoors type stuff. Hopefully we will see a little snow. Just a little though.

We have been getting used to our little puppy dog. She is a mess. The potty thing is working well. She is somewhat house broken. She has started going to the door sometimes when she has to go. If we can just get over the biting stage. I will post a photo soon. Mia is adjusting to her. She hates her and that is it. lol. Mia is our pug. So now we have a beagle and a pug.

Well that is an update and now it is off to bed.

later

The notebook

I just finished watching the notebook. It was a great movie. I cried like a baby.

From an acting note. I thought that acting in this was brillant. I thought the two younger characters did a marvelous job not to mention that Noah is hot. lol All around a geat movie.


Going to see Harry Potter tomorrow. I can't wait. The girls are so excited. They are so into HP. busy rest of the week actually.

take 1

Holly's commercial went great. We had a blast doing it. The more I am around that kind of thing, the more I realize that is what I want to do.

Harry Potter comes out this weekend, we are looking foward to it. We are going back and watching all the other movies this week and we will go see the new one hopefully this weekend sometime.

looking fowar to a great week end. Roll tide.

I am going to try to do this again

It has been awhile, sorry to anybody if they really do read this. I have been out of the blogging loop. I have plenty of excuses, but I will spare those for another post of whining later.

To update, been busy. Swimming, drumming, working, teaching.

Thinking a lot lately about many things. God has been revealing a lot of things to me in my life. who knows maybe he never stopped, I just wasn't paying attention.

Been doing a lot fo filming stuff. I participated in 48 hour film competition. That was fun stuff. My scene that I was in ended up getting cut,due to mic stand in the shot and other tech stuff. I helped write and crew the shoot. I learned a lot. I am working on my crew resume so that I can participate in that manner more. I got to do the clapboard and say scene 1 take 1. Fun Fun fun.

I have been doing a good deal of writing also. I am working on another short for my acitng class. I am helping write and will help crew that and maybe be in it. Also, I did a skit at church and am currently working on some film stuff there. Maybe one day, I can earn a living doing this. If not, I will work for food. lol. I would honestly do this for nothing for the rest of my life, I love film, theatre and such like.

Holly, my oldest will be getting in the film thing. She will be doing a commercial for a local tv station tomorrow or I should say todya. I am so excited for her. We have a little sister envy going on, but good lessons can be learned. I hope all goes well.

I missed my acting class all month due to conflicts in schedule. I really miss it to. Hopefully, December will be back to normal. we are keeping our fingers crossed.

temptation

I read this on upmost for his highest website.


We have the idea that we ought to shield ourselves from some of the things God brings around us. May it never be! It is God who engineers our circumstances, and whatever they may be we must see that we face them while continually abiding with Him in His temptations

i wonder am I overcoming the temptations God has set before me? I am going to reflect on this.

Maybe it just the full moon!!!!!!!!!!

Reading my friends blog makes me think something is up and then I remembered that it was a full moon tonight. Well, maybe that is what it was, but if not, I send love and peace to everyone of them.

My thoughts are on direction for me and my family. I know we desire to be healthy, and debt free, but we stuggle with this constantly. I can blame it on how I was raised or how I was treated, but the bottom line is blame gets you no where. Action gets you where you need to go.

I need a voodoo doll quick

It is so frustrating to me that people want do what they are supposed to. Then when you try to communicate to them that they need to _________________. They get freakin defensive and aren't grown up enough to handle someone get in there face and call them out. Especially when they know that person is only trying to help them reach certain goals they are trying to reach. It is just so frustrating to me. Why can't people be mature enough to except that they are not strong enough to handle certain things and need help. We all need help in our lives. That is why we are here to help each other. ARGHHHHHH

It has been a tiring weekend for me. I am so tired at this very moment that I can't hardly move. Now I have get up from here and clean up my house. (wash dishes, clothes, pick up stuff out of the floor, mostly dirty laundry.) I work 9-7 every other saturday and it plum wears me out.

Enough whining. I should be thankful that I have dishes and clothes to wash and a family to pick up after. Oh well, must be off to work.

It crazy to learn everything you already knew is right!!!

Through all of the religious struggle that I have been through. I came to the conclusion by the voice of God's holy spirit that the stuff that I truly knew is right. When I mean truly knew, I mean those heart felt things you know are of God and are true. We know you should not kill, we know you should not commit adultery. We know we are to trust God. Many things we know, but it is nice that God reminds us of what we already think we know. We may have it stored in the back of our brain from where a sermon was preached, but to really know something in my book is making it second nature. Making it an impulse. That is what I want to do in my life, to make my walk with God an impulse. Not in a fake way, but truthfully and impulse. Just as someone reaches out to shake my hand and I shake their hand is natural so should my daily impulses be. These are my daily impulses

love;
joy;
peace;
patience;
kindness;
goodness;
faithfulness;
gentleness;
self-control

Oh to have these daily impulse every day.

What a crazy weekend and week!!!!!!!

I am so devastated by the whole weather thing. I am to the point that I can't even watch the news anymore. I get so depressed and I start crying every time I sit down and watch the news. Seriously I do. I feeling very moved. I even said out loud today that I was going to get in my car and drive down there an pick up all of those little kids and babies that are without water and get them some. For me I feel for the kids the most. They had no choice to stay or go. They live with their parents choices. How sad that they have no water, food or toys to play with.

Heidi has been watching the news with me and she was moved to do something. She wanted to go tell the people down their that God loves them when she got older. I motivated her to do something to show the people God's love. With a little help from me, she has decided to take a couple of gallon jars to school and collect money from all of her schoolmates and donate the money to some fund to help the hurricane victims. All of this was very moving to me, but I was really moved when she brought her last weeks allowance and put it in the jar. How sweet is that.

A friend of mine who is not very wealthy at all has had 5 family members move in with him for who knows how long. They are from slidell pretty much where the hurricane came in or where the surge hit really big. I really feel for him and have decided to try to raise a little money from friends to help out with his grocery bill. That is tough. Here you are trying to make ends meet working hard and then you get 5 more attachments. That is just hard. Hopefully, I will be able to help him out a little myself.

We all definitely have something to be thankful for that is for sure.

Slow down you crazy childYou're so ambitious for a juvenileBut then if you're so smart tell me whyYou are still so afraid? Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?You better cool it off before you burn it outYou got so much to do and onlySo many hours in a day But you know that when the truth is toldThat you can get what you wantOr you an just get oldYou're gonna kick off before you even get halfway throughWhen will you realizeVienna waits for you Slow down you're doing fineYou can't be everything you want to beBefore your timeAlthough it's so romantic on the borderline tonightToo bad but it's the life you leadYou're so ahead of yourselfThat you forgot what you needThough you can see when you're wrong But you know you can't always see when you're rightYou got your passion you got your prideBut don't you know only fools are satisfied?Dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come trueWhen will you realizeVienna waits for you Slow down you crazy childTake the phone off the hookAnd disappeaar for a whileIt's alright you can afford to lose a day or twoWhen will you realizeVienna waits for you. Vienna. Billy Joel lyrics awesome song.


I watched 13 going on 30 today. Great movie for me. I always do feel like I am 35 going on 13. There is a little kid in all of us. We just have to find it and hold on to it and never let it go.

this is me now 

This was me in April 2003. Wow 

I have been thinking

Ever since the other night, I have been thinking a lot about what was said and how it relates to my life. Referring to my acting class. It is pretty amazing to me that sometimes we just don't even understand our own selves. We have an idea of who we are, but when it comes out in the wash, we are not that person. Bizarre to me. As I sat and watched my audition tape, I thought I knew what I saw in the mirror everyday. On film I was totally not what I expected. I felt pretty for the first time in my life. Glamorous. I don't mean to sound vain or conceited, but I am 30 something and I have never felt glamorous in my life until this week. I don't think that I am a dog or anything, but just average looking. Plain and simple. Low maintence whatever. I am not all what I think that I am on the inside either. I am selfish, ego maniac, who thinks everything should be about me. I draw attention to myself on pupose. I direct the conversation to include me by telling relational stories so that I feel like I belong. That is my destination in life I think. To belong, to identify. For once, I am trying not to even care what anyone thinks about me. I am trying to be and say how I feel and not worry about the outcome of others. If they choose to get offended or mad or hurt, that is their business. I just want to be me. I probably want fulfill what I just said because I do care what you think. I do want people to like me. I bring crudeness on myself most of the time. Short jokes, dumb jokes, whatever is the joke of choice. I play into it, not on purpose mind you. I just say what I think which most don't to avoid looking stupid. I just say it without thinking and fall into the trap of being a joke. Not taken seriously.

My next thought is why do I judge people for the things they say. Oh he is smart, oh she is such an idiot, oh that is a valid point she made etc. Why can't I just sit and listen and not be judgmental? Why can't I be excepting of other people? Why do I always think that person is not cool. That person is an idiot. Where is the grace?

Enough thought.

I am going to disneyworld

Well, it is official we (my family extened included) are going to disney world in February. I made reservations today. mom, dad, bridgett, rod, hannah allie, eric holly, heidi and me will head off into the sunset to see the one and only mickey mouse request of the grandparents . The begged and pleaded for our munchkins to go so we are going.

Acting class was so different last night. Everyone was really tired and we were down in numbers. We were going to do our scences, but we had a great discussion which was very profitable and then we watched our audition tape. It was hard to believe that it was actually me on the screen. All the work that I put into the auditon really paid off. I was pleased. It is really important to live moment by moment and not let things around you bring you down. Have joy where you are even at office depot I need that. I have got to find that happy place there. I have got to find a place at work that I can go to and be able to leave the spinning that goes on there.


Life is great. for me.

My husband should not enrage people!!!!

Not to take away from the story in the paper, but this was the title on the Decatur Daily on line. It cracked me up because that is what My husband Eric is called some times "E"

People seeing ‘E’ turn enraged http://www.decaturdaily.com/decaturdaily/index.shtml


Wow what a busy weekend! Work is getting crazier by the minute. More crap to put up with. I am trying to keep a positive attitued about it, but it just want happen. I want to throw a 2 year old tantrum last night, but refrained.

Must go to drum lesson then acting class tonight. It should be a good time.


I have been trying tackle the treadmill 3 times a week to keep myself maintaining. I stay hungry a lot more, but am still trying to eat the same. Headed now to exercise away.

good day, good night

I had a good day today. I talked with a long lost friend. My friend Kim Carrol Gray. We haven't spoken in 10 years. She saw me at work and I got her number and called her. It was nice talking with her. We are going to get together for lunch on Monday. It should be fun.

Eric and I talked about me quiting work and pursuing my acting thing. I struggle to do that because we are still working to get out of debt. We will see what happens with that.

OFF

I am off today and tomorrow, how wonderful it will be. yeah. I work the weekend and I am not looking foward to it. I am trying not to think about it. Work has been horrible the last couple of weeks due to back to school.

Today, I am going to go run on the treadmill, then come home clean house and watch a movie probably. Then work on some of the scripts that I have. Spend some time with the family. Especially, I want to spend some time with Eric because I haven't seen him much in the last 2 days going on 3. It will be fun day.

acting class

Just got home from my oasis. (acting class). I love it. It is awesome. We have a great time. Tonigh we were all auditoning for a movie that is to be made in California. It is great experience thanks to our wonderful teacher. His produciton company will be putting this movie on. It should be cool to see if any of us get a part in this movie, and if we don't it was cool to work the audition thing for me. At this moment, I had a great time. That is what you live for moment to moment.


Furgetaboutit

furgeitaboutit

No that is not a misspelling. I watched Donnie Brasco yesterday and I love that from the movie. It is a word that has multiple meanings. so forget about it alright.

Work freaking sucked tonight. I got off at 12:15. Crazy. People are more nuts at back to school than they are at Christmas. Freaking nut cases that come up with the school supply list. I am just thankful that I homeschool and don't have to do all of that crap. baby wipes for an 8th grader. wt.


I will be off tomorrow. I have a busy day planned though meeting in the morning at 10:00.

then back home to clean house, cook dinner, and iron clothes for tomorrow night. take heidi to drum lessons, get my hair done for the audition, then go to acitng class. Auditions tommorow for the film in California. keep your fingers crossed that I will break a leg.

Early reflections

I am up early this morning for no apparent reason. I just am.

I have got to stop eating so much. I have been eating to many points (weight watchers).

I haven't really gained weight. I flucuate here and there. Up and down. I just have to start on the losing track again. I need to lose about 10 more pounds.

I must stay in good health. I must. I just read an intresting article on alzheimer's disease. They say that dieabetes and high insulin levels are an attributer and genetics. My grandmother had it. It is one way I don't want to go out that is for sure.

So for me I am going to get back on board the weight loss train. hee hee.

Acting stuff is going well still. Class was fun the other night. Tuesday brings another audition. This is such great experience for me if nothing else.

WEll I am off to read some blogs and maybe back to bed for 1 hour or so.

acting update

Things are pretty well for me. I have got to get back into the swing of posting everyday or at least every other.

Acting wise, I have more work than I have in a long time. Meaning. I am preparing for several auditons, and working on a skit at church. I am have so much fun. Plus, I have material to work on for my class. It is all to much fun. I didn't get the part for one of the things I auditoned for, but it was a great experience for me to actually experience a true film audition.

Work on the other hand is a little stressful at the moment. I hate back to school worse than Christmas. ARGH. I guess to be on the thankful side of things at least their is a demand for school supplies so that I can keep my job.

I have class tonight so I must go rehearse.

Charlie and the chocolate factory was

excellent. I had to think about it for a day before I could actually say how I felt. Johnny Depp is just brillant. He is as real as it gets. The guy that plays charlie is very believable as well. It was the weirdest movie I have ever watched. Well there was Fight Club.


I heard today that I didn't get the part in the b-town movie, but that one of my friends did. I was cool with that. She is so deserving and a great actress. I am very excited for her. I am not just saying that.


Still rehearsing for the california movie auditon. It will be videod in Huntsville. It is pretty fun. Hopefully, if I am not cast for the roll that I am auditioning for, that I will be cast at least for an extra. We will see.


I love my new take on life. Be honest, be truthful and don't let anyone get you down.

What's it like, Neverland?

One day I'll take you there


From Finding Neverland

I got scripts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I now have 4 scripts I am working on. It is crazy for sure. I have 2 auditons coming up. I love it. I am pumped about all of this.

Good b'day for me. worked, cooked,swam, grocery shopped, saw my granny. In reverse order, hee hee. The work part wasn' t so fun, but whose work is, unless you are a movie star. hee hee. Oh well, Life goes on.

please don't make me eat anymore. please please i beg you

That is the way I feel for sure. I feel like i way 1 ton.

It was a great weekend. Eric took off Friday to spend the day with me for my birthday. He is so sweet. He suprised me by scheduling us a 1 hour massage at Decatur Massage Theraphy. Go there you will not be disappointed. Then we did some running around. Then we went to eat at the jazz factory. Very nice dinner, great atmosphere, great live quintet music. After dinner, we headed over the the flying monkey, very artsey warehouse. Their was a classical guitarist and a well renowned percussionist playing some latin music. It was super cool for sure. Then we caught up with Scott, Jeremey, allison, derek, and rob. We headed over to Scott's to hang out and be goofy.

Saturday, we got up and headed out to Huntsville. We ran some errands first, then to humphries for a nice lunch. then to the tatoo convention. (See Eric's blog for his comments) I found it very intresting. There were so many different people there. There were people who didn't know anything about tatoo's to people who were tatoo'd all over. I was amazed at the art and gained a new respect for tatoo artist. Someone came up to me and say I want this on my arm, It would take me a lifetime to draw it. This guy whips it up in like 1 minute. Crazy stuff. Crazy. It was pretty amazing until the wiggles concert let out and parents brought their young children in there with their captian feathersword's sword. Kids were like eeew that is ugly eewww look at her hair that is weird. Just craziness.

One thing that really got to me is how people just get a tatoo for no reason. One lady goes up to this guy who is like Johnny Depp of the tatoo world and says, I had a hankering to get a tatoo and I don't want to spend a lot, I want something small right here and proceeds to show her left boob (no nipple). the artist said well what do you want to get their and how big do you want it? she goes I don't know what do you think? he quotes her and she walks away. Crazy. If I was going to get something inked on my body. I would have to have more than a hankoring. If I am going to carry this ink around with me until the day I die, it will be well thought out and I will not get some stupid meaningless tatoo. enough said. It was a cool refreshing artsey weekend needless to say.

After that, we headed to best buy to look at some stuff. Then to mcallistar's to get tea and eat cheesecake. It was great, until we started to leave and the bottom fell out. It rained and rained and rained and finally we said screw it lets go. we ran to the car and headed to meet up with scott, allison, jeremey, and derek. after a while we all went to eat and then headed to scott's to hang. e and I came home and headed to bed.

The girls came home and then it was to church to see dave get his head shaved my high priest eric. then again to mavis for another birthday feast. After that came home took a nap. The girls and eric woke me up to give me another gift from them. Mom and dad came by and brought me money and the girls had mom buy me a candle smells good.

My sister wanted to take me to olive garden for my birthday, I told her I didn't want to go. I can't believe I used to eat like this all of the time. My god no wonder i felt like crap all of the time. I dont' know what we will do instead.

Church was good this morning. I enjoyed the worship. It sounded wonderful with the keys up there.

Tomrrow I will wake up and will have spent 34 full year and start 35. All I can say is that if the next 35 years are as good as the past 35, I can't wait for the ride especially if eric is by my side.

Another year

Almost another year older. Monday I will be 35. It sound crazy even saying that because I still feel 8 or something. I had a conversation with a friend of mine and we both agreed that we are still and will always be young.

Good new is, I have 2 auditions coming up. One movie is going to be filmed in Birmingham. The other will be filmed in California. I am trying not to get hung up on landing the role and focus on prepartion for the audition. This will be my first real movie audition. The one for B-town will be on Tuesday. The other will be in a couple of weeks. I just want to have a good time doing my audition that way if I don't get the part, I still had fun. I don't want to tense up and get all freaky on myself about it. I am constantly trying to kill the competive spirit within. heee heee . All those sports I played in school.

Hopefully, blogging will become a regular thing for me soon. With school starting back and all of that. We will not actually start back until September 6 I think it is. Oh the benifit of homeschooling. We may start a week early I haven't decided yet.


My nieces will start 3k this year. I can't believe they are that big.

I took Holly and Heidi shopping for school clothes this week. Scored some great deals at Dillards. Got like 20 pieces of clothing for under $200 dollars. That is crazy for quality clothing.


Eric already gave me the best birthday present ever. He took today off to spend it with me. He has planned out the day for my birthday. Fun times WILL be had. The kids are at the lake all weekend. They will come home Sunday morning. I don't have to work until Monday night. Life is grand. Well must get on to the celebrating.

busy at work

It has been a past couple of busy days. Work is crazy with all the school shopping and no regular cashiers scheduled, so guess who the cashier is. I look foward to Tuesday. Got to practice. cooking dinner and going to watch once upon a time in mexico.

Back in the saddle, hopefully.

After much swimming, we are done with summer swim. It was fun, but busy. I don't know I love all that mommy stuff.

My sister in law just left and headed back to California. She seems to be happier, now she is there and doing law school. I am happy for her.

I have been getting some bites on my acting stuff. Hopefully I will be hearing to do some screen test in a couple of shorts pretty soon.

The kids and i have been doing the library thing lately. The summer reading program. Who did that when they where little. If you want a childhood memory, dial a story 256-350-2011.

Acting class is saving me a bunch of money in theraphy. hee hee.

I am very happy for my hubby as well, he is officially in Nail. That is a band. Good for him. I am very happy about that. He deserves something good to happen to him. His life has not been the easiest and Good things need to be coming around for him.


What else, Gosh so much so little time to write. We have swim at 9 in the morning. Unlike Eric, I will be glad when it goes back to the afternoon.

Well that is all I can think of must go to bed.

Thoughts

We as Christians are feeding the world the wrong message. We tell them that if they get saved it will all be better. I heard someone say this week. That when you except Christ you get fiery furnaces, lions dens, time in the dessert. Yes there are those sweet moments, but their are the sour one to.

I am reminded of an article that I received in one of my wedding gifts. It discussed mountaintop experiences. How we must push on in difficult times because going up the mountain is difficult, but we can't quit because the mountain peak may just be a couple more steps away.

Fun Plans for the 4th!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We have great fun planned for the 4th of July. Eric and I will head out in the morning to Georgia for wilderness camping experiment. It will be good to spend some time with him for a couple of days. We will come back saturday evening and head to the lake for a couple of more days of relaxing vacation. I am off work for like 6 days. Wow so cool. It will be fun. I have so much to do today. Clean house, pack for the kids, pack for me, give dog a bath, take dog to mavis. WE have swim meet tonight. so that will take half of the day. However, I am enjoying the swim team for the most part. Holly is improving so much and she is loving it to.


Happy 4th to all who celebrate it.

Help on the way

I am thankful that we may have some finiancial light at the end of the tunnel.

Roller Coaster Rides are not fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That is the kind of day I had. A roller coaster ride of a day. I started out with a big drop off when I got up late. Then I headed to meet my family at church. That was pretty exciting and fun then another drop and upside down loop, I went to work. That was pretty uneventful. Then headed home to try to just relax and watch tv. Eric worked on Financial things today. That is never a good day. Our finaciaces pretty much suck as everyone we know knows. One day, I know we want have to worry about any of that. One day, we will be debt free. It seems that we could be having the greatest day of anyone and money conversations pretty much wreck the picture. I guess no one deserves a perfect life. If it were not for finincail woes, my life would be perfect.

update

Party was fun. We had plenty of food and fun. I just love my acting buddies. They are just a blast to be around. Our fearless leader didn't make it, and he was missed. They all are headed to a wedding today. I must work at the OD. I hate saturdays becasue it is a 11 hour shift with one lunch break. It is pretty exhausting. Then I have to work on sunday 12-6:30 no lunch break. That shift would not be so bad, but I get so tired from the day before. I have got to stop being so dang negative about work. I have to find my happy place there and relax. I must be there so, I must be happy.

I will post pictures of my party later.

Partay

That is what we are going to do tonight.

Spent the afternoon at Smith Lake. I am now getting ready to go to a going away party.

Anxiety attacks, cheesecake, and peanut butter cookies

I realized today that the physical problems that I have been having lately, (dizzeness, tightness of muscles, feeling like that I am going to pass out) is all due to anxiety. I thought all lot of things may be causing my problems. I have realized that I let small things just get to me without realizing it until it is to late. I start feeling week, my muscle tighten, and I arrive in high strung mode. I am turning into my mother. I guess it is my destiny. My grandmother did this, my mom does this, so does my sister and now me. I don't know if it is personality, insanity or what.

I baked peanut butter cookies and I am now baking a cheesecake. I love cooking. I wished I had time to do more of it. It is fun. I made the cookies for the girls they needed a snack. I am making the cheesecake for a party that I am going to tomorrow night. (Thanks kim for letting me borrow your mixer. ) My friend from my class are getting together to say goodbye to 3 of our students that are headed to New York to pursue their acting careers. The rest of us are so jealous that we are not going with them. lol. Maybe I will make it to New York before I die.

I have to work this weekend. Makes for a long weekend.

I'm published

I'm published. Here is an article that I wrote to the Decatur Daily regarding the swim team.

Class tonight

Just got in from acting class. It was a blast again tonight. We filmed some stuff. It was very exciting. It will be neat to see if anything comes from the filming. We had a new guy in our class tonight. He and his wife were there. They are very nice people. We seem to have a lot in common with them. (Eric and I). Going to class for me is like walking barefoot in a beautiful grassy field. So refreshing. I am so tired right now, but so giddy due to just getting out of class. I am glad that I have found this group of people that are honest and truthfuly about themselves and you can see it and feel by being around them. I have truly met friends.

Cool stuff

Cool things continue to happen to me concerning acting stuff. I maybe getting a call soon to do a screen test for a local b movie. This will provide great experience for me. I real excited about that.

I am currently waiting on my friend Jim toget here so we can over some stuff we will be filming in acting class tonight. No swim meet, so I actually get to go tonight. Don't get me wrong, I am enjoying the swim meets, but I am excited over the fact that there is not one. lol. So anyway cool stuff going on.

Yesterday, we go to swim lessons and there were a tremendous amount of bugs in the pool that should have been cleaned out before practice, but due to the sad sad city we live in, the lady at the pool pawned it off on the coaches. Saying it was there responsibiblity to clean the pool.

So I wrote the parks and rec pres. and the decatur daily editoral section of the paper with my complaint on how the swim team program in decatur is being neglected. Not just over bug mind you, but the fact that they don' t have a permanent place to practice year round. They hop from pool to pool to pool. aquadome in the winter, carrie matthews in the summer. I figured yesterday that I should do something while I was still frustrated. I knew that I wouldn't if I didn't. lol.


Drum lesson again today. Heidi drum teacher seems to be pleased with her progress. I am definitely excited over what she is doing. She is a very talented little girl. I love both my kids for their indivuality that is for sure. They are so different from each other. Truly amazing.

That is my update, morgan out.

Holly doing the breaststroke. 

Holly is in the middle warming up. 

Heidi really getting serious!!!!  

Heidi 1st official photo shoot. hee hee. 

I'm Back!!!!!!!

I know that so many people will be happy to know. I know that so many people have missed reading my exciting wonderful life story. hee hee.

We have been extremely busy, thus we all are exhausted. I never thought that swimming could be so demanding. Between swimming, work, and normal ordinary stuff, like house work, I have been extremely busy.

I am very proud of Holly she is so cute swimming. Just precious. She is improving her times and legally finishing races, that is pretty good for a first year swimmer. She has like 14 ribbons so far and many more will come for sure.

Heidi is doing great on her drums. Her teacher says that she is knocking her book out. He gets so tickled at her she wants to play all these crazy beats and stuff. She is so funny, I will ask her were she got the beat from and she will say it came from out of my head. I wondered many times what was going on up in there. lol.

I am a very proud momma that is for sure.

back blogging at the end of the week

I will update at the end of the week. We will have internet at the end of week.

Spring is a busy time!

Got a lot going on lately. Haven't took time to really journal anything here. Finally got a part for my acting class skit night. It is a great part. I just hope I do well at it.

School work will hopefully be finished soon. Then I have to average grades and turn in end of the year stuff. We will start swimming pretty much 5 days a week starting in June. Still have Heidi's drum lesson. It will be a busy time for us for sure.

It was a happy mother's day!!!!

Woke up this morning to a crying child. My little one didn't feel well. I had to call and make arrangements for someone to teach my sunday school class. As the day progressed, she got better. By the time hubby got home, she felt well enough to go out. So we headed for a picnic lunch in pop oliver park. Then, we headed to grocery store to get stuff to make sundae's. It was a fun time. We sat in the backyard eating ice cream together and making bracelts. Holly and Heidi have started making jewlery. They have decided to call it something like beads baby. Holly has contracted Heidi to work for her. LOL. Heidi informed me that holly was a good boss because she allowed her to quit anytime she wanted to. Heidi got really tired after I gave her some medicine. I hope she will feel better tomorrow. When she doesn't eat, I know she is sick. Busy day tomorrow. I am about to make a list so I can sleep without trying to piece my day together in my head.

late night relaxing drive into what seems to be heaven!!!!

After work i drove to smith lake to spend the night last night. It was wonderful peaceful drive and when I reached the destination, I get out of the car and it was gorgeous simply breath taking. I get up this morning get clean, walk outside and again simply beautiful. Tranquil it is. I would live there if there was a remote possiblity are somewhere out like that. I can't imagine waking up everyday to that wow. I went there for a family gathering on my dad's side. Saw some people who were very nice about my weight loss and it was good to see them and reminiss about old times when I was small. I captured memories with these cousins and such that were great ones. Good times were had headed back to house this afternoon as I drove through this one part of the forest, I felt like I really got a glimpse of God's glory. All I can say is amazing.

Afternoon Delight!!!!!!!!!!

I enjoyed spending the afternoon with Eric today. It was nice and peaceful. We talked about trying to not let things get to us so much and living without stress. I love days like that when we communicate peacefully and we just enjoy each others company. I wished more people saw that Eric. The world is missing out for sure. He is a pure joy to be around. He is wonderful to be around.

Pama interview went well. Hopefully, there will be work on the way.

Busy, but fun

Got up early this morning and didn't go back to sleep watched a little of the smurfs with Heidi. Did some housework, school work, had a picnic with my nieces and kids. Then, we were off to huntsville to drum lessons. That went well. The guy that is her teacher has a degree in percussion. And he is super nice. Came home and worked in the front flower bed. Now Iam beat and headed to bed.

I am saying a little prayer for my friend stacey. She is due and ready to pop out a baby. I pray that God's timing is now. lol

It was a pretty perfect day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Busy weekend

Had to work the weekend and yesterday. I am off tonight. I have to take Heidi for her first drum lesson today in Huntsville. I hope that goes well. I was supposed to have acting class this evening, but It got changed till tomorrow. I have to work so no acting class this week.

Eric wants me to quit work, but I just don't see how it would be possible at this time. Our budget is finally free enough to pay some things off and I hate to push all of that on him.

I am going to drop off some head shots at a place that I did some work before. Just some updated shots and see about some possible work for this company. Try to get some nailed down dates and take some vacation at work and do some work myself. We will see how that goes. Also, I am trying to put myself with the Pama agency in Huntsville to see if that will generate some work. The way I see it, if I can get at leas 500 dollars a month coming in for acting opps, then I would quit work. We will see how that goes.


Wendy

Holly's science project 

group shot 

Heidi with the clinics instructors. Left to right Neil Flum, Heidi, Thom Hannum. 

Heidi at drum clinic at Austin High School with University of Alabama million dollar percussion section  

Acting Class

I just got in from acting class. It was yet another fun night. I was first up tonight. It was needless to say fun stuff. I learned a lot tonight. I learned that anything can happen and you just have to go with the flow of things. It was very fun. Going to class is like going to another world. It is like what they say on the intro to the real world on MTV. It is when everyone stops being nice and gets real or something of that nature. It is just wonderful.

SEE BELOW!!!!!

Jmo's took some pictures of me, they are below, thus see below.

Acting clas tonight. I am excited about that. It is always a good time. All else is well here. Just trying to be myself and be positive, upbeat, and happy. Hopefully rub off on anyone that is around me.

Props again to jmo. You did good.

Peace

Jmo's wonderful work again. 

Jmo's wonderful work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Emotional !!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, I am having an emotional moment right now. I just talked with a friend of mine that I have been worried about and now I feel better. I am at the brink of tears of relief. I love her dearly and she has been going through a tough time over the past couple of years, but seems to be doing better. I have been worried because she is doing so well, but after speaking with her this evening, I feel that she is going to be alright. I wish you well friend.

On another note, I swung by jmos to sign some paper work and pick up suprisingly some pictures. Thanks again jmo, you are the snizzle. They are wonderful. Big props to him for taking such wonderful photos.

Over all busy, but productive day.

Tiring past 2 days.

We administrated SAT's at our homeschool covering the last 2 days. Myself and other degreed folks voulenteered to give the test. I thought I got tired taking the test, giving is even more punishment. I didn't test Heidi, except at home. I did test Holly to see how well I am teaching her. Heidi is just not ready.

My pictures that Jmo took came out great. I can't wait to see them on paper. Big Kudos to him for doing that for me.


Acting class got canceled last night. My teacher got stuck in California. So, I hung out with Eric at band pratice then we headed over to get the girls. It was a good night.

weekly recap

Been busy since my last post. I worked all weekend. Got off early Sunday night. So eric and I watched Finding Neverland. He liked it to.

Monday same old same old routine. School, housework, swim team practice, work.

Last night, we headed over to jmo's work and took some photos. He did an awesome job. I didn't realize how tiring all that could be. It takes a lot of work to be a supermodel, I bet.

Finding Neverland Review!!!!!!

This is a wonderful film. I just finished up the DVD. I have always loved the story of Peter Pan. I love anything that has ever been related to it. I guess it is the kid in me. This movie is no exception. I loved it. Wow, I cried like a baby in it. When I heard that they were making this movie, I was a bit unexcited. I was like great another Peter pan movie. What else can they do with this story? Boy, I underestimated the whole idea. You must see this, or you may become a pirate. I wished I could say more, but the way I am feeling cannot be put into words, it can only be felt. SEE THIS DVD!!!!!!!!

Shall we _____________?

You must ask yourself this question in your life at some point.

What provoked this? I just finished viewing the movie shall we dance. Wow, I thought this would be a good movie, but I didn't realize that it would more than just another pretty woman, or runaway bride or maid in manhattan type movie. Meaning this, unrealistic, fairy tale movies that chicks dig. This movie to me provoked thoughts of my reality. I guess that is why it meant so much.

I am much like the wife in this movie for one. We (eric and I ) run a well oiled machine. We have a wonderful life. We are well on our way to living and dying by the American dream. We are happy. I am threatned by anything Eric does without me because I am afraid. Even though he does things without me, I don't like it. Like tonight he is camping without me. It drives me crazy. Does this mean I want him to stop doing those things? No, of course not. I am becoming to realize that there are certain things that he is good at and loves that I can't or don't want to participate in. I love hiking and camping, but not as much as he does. I love music, but I suck at it. I am learning, especially after watching this film, that we need to do things that fufill our lives. It is not that I am not enough for him, but I am not the only thing in his life that makes him happy. Like right now I have no one at home. At first, I was somewhat depressed, but after watching the movie I was watching, I am not. I love movies, theatre, and anything related to that sort of thing.

The commentary or special feature interviews are wonderful to.


I am much like the other character the husband (Richard Gere) because I am at a point that I am ashamed to admit that sometimes, I am not happy. I have a lot. I am blessed. I was born to parents who taught me about God and his son. I have a wonderful hubby, two wonderful daughters, a great house, dog and 2 cars. One should be happy with this right. Every so often, I get unhappy. I believe this is becuase I am at a stand still. I am not experiencing life, God or anything. Life is supposed to be our journey to grow closer to being who we are supposed to be. WE never arrive, until we die. I believe that God gives us desires in our life to make us better people or make us more the person he wants us to be. I try to live a transparent life. I don't have a false relationship with Christ most of the time. Every step I take I try to take it truly with honesty. I want to be me. I am so happy that God can guide me by using any manner of his creating he chooses. Some people can learn things by doing, some by watching, some by hearing. god is the best teacher on the planet.


So, did I gain all this from a movie. I learned bits and pieces on this journey of life.

Robert Frost put it best.



Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference

Now I remember one of the reason I got married and had kids!!!!!!

I hate being alone. I have been such since about 5:00 this afternoon. I went to walmart got groceries. Now I am about to watch save the last dance and finding neverland.

Holly is at a sleepover. (Her very first sleepover with other folks beside family. I remember those days fun times.)
Heidi wanted to stay with my sister.
Eric went camping. (I couldn't go since I have to work tomorrow at 8:30.)

So here I sit lonely and alone. It is the weirdiest feeling for real.

Acting class is going wonderfully. I love my class and it is cool to meet new friends. I am learning so much stuff. I am reading 2 books that my acting teacher wanted me to read. I am enjoying them aslo.

My schedule at work is looking better all the time. I work 3 days a week now 5:-9:30 and every other weekend sat. 8:30 - 7:30 and sun 12- 5. Now I will get to come to church every week. Yeah!!!!!!!

Well that is my update. I have got to get started on my movies.


Peace!

After the 4 mile hike, we took a rest. 

The Sipsey River 

Fat man's squeeze. It was real muddy. WE actually rock climbed on the top of this on the way through the trail. On the way back we went through the squeeze. 

One of many waterfalls on trail 200 in Sipsey Wilderness area. 

wow has it been that long

I keep saying I am going to blog, but I forget to.

A lot has happened since my last entry. We moved some furniture, traveled to pell city, smith lake, We went hiking. I have been working. My hours this week got cut back a little yippee. I am working like 5 -10. instead of 3 - 10. It gives me more home time.


I get to go to acting class this week. It is tonight. That will be fun.

Due to my screwed up scheule I still haven't done the picture thing. ARGH. I have got to make some time to do some photos for sure.

Rain Rain Go Away!!!!

Well got up a little later than normal today. My trip to the woods was postponed since We decided that we needed to work on the flower bed in the back and the front. So yesterday afternoon, I started working on the back flower bed at 1:30 didn't finish up until 6:00. It looks great. I got several more plants into the ground. I was exhausted by the time I went to bed. I didn't get up until 9:00. Woke up with a small headache. I really woke up at 7:30, but laid in bed and dosed in and out of sleep until 9:00 when ERic called me. His voice reminded me that I am not a teenager anymore and that I had responsibilities to take care of. oops. I feel bad for him. He worked in the fron flower bed, but still had to get up at 4:30 this morning. He said he felt good though.

Hopefully, I will get with someone this weekend to shoot some photos of me. I really need to begin working on My portfolio for acting jobs. I have got one company promising to call me soon to do some work, but I need to get them some new photos shot so they know that I look a bit different. Hopefully that will happen.

Eric said something about going to Nashville to REI this weekend. We will see how that goes.

Well must get off of here and do some teaching.

GLORIOUS OFF DAY

WOOHOO, THANK YOU GOD! It is a beautiful day. I don't have anywhere that I have to be. I get to spend time with the family. We are going to drive down to the covered bridge in Cullman and hike and take some pictures. I want some for my scrapbook of Alabama that I am making. It will be fun and exciting I think. Just being outside this glourious day is good enough for me. Eric had other things I think he wanted to do, but he is going to sacrifice those today and go out with me, God, what a man you have given me. I am the luckiest women in the world.

No acting class this week, my acting teacher is in Italy. He had planned this trip before the pope died and all. I will miss class, but I am kind of glad to have a day off after working 5 days in a row. I know people think I am crazy, but I do more than just work. I homeschool my kids, keep a house. I don't see how women work 40 + hours and run a household craziness. I admire them.

Well, here is to a beautiful day!!!!!