Harry will have to wait:(

I promised my oldest that I wouldn't see Harry Potter until she got back from camp. She better know that I am very tempted. I can't wait to see it. Yeah. I am almost ready to pull an all nighter, but I better be off to bed soon. I guess we will try to go either Sunday matinee or Monday matinee. We shall see.

Stevie Wonder on Sesame street singing my favorite song of his.

If you like Stevie Wonder you will love this.

God is bigger!!!

This preacher I heard talked about this topic exactly. He spoke of how God is bigger than your boss that didn't give you that promotion. God is bigger than the principals that reject me. God is bigger than the pinched nerve in my neck and God is bigger than the wrong road I took today. He is in control of everything. Just when you think you have Him all figured out, he surprises you. Even if you think, God is going to take care of me this way or that. He pulls out all the stops sometimes and shows you his grace is sufficient in the time of need. I am just glad that God still speaks to me, even though I have shook my fist at him and cried why many times. He is faithful and just to forgive us of all our unrighteousness. Truly amazing.

The greatest sport on earth!!!

I went tonight to play volleyball on Huntsville adult league. I played in the lower level. I had a blast. It was so much fun.

I was hurting before I went, due to a hug given to me by a friend that was excited to see me. You ask, How excited was she? So excited that I now have something like a pinched nerve or back disc issues.

Now add 4 games of volleyball and you have one sore body. It is a good sore from volleyball. I love the feeling of exhaustion due to athletic activity.

I had so much fun.

They are growing up!!!

Sleeping Bags, pillows, suitcases, and a whole lot of chatter. Put all of that together, and you get camp. I remember camp as a kid. There was nothing like it. Good friends, food and entertainment. This morning, the oldest of the two kids went to her first camp. I can't believe that she is 4 hours away. Granted, she is 12, but she is still my baby. My sister went as a counselor and this helped the agony. I know she will watch her like a hawk. It is still so unreal for me to realize that I have a 12 year old. They slip away to quickly. I am sure my parents feel the same way. On the other side, I am left at home with 1 child who is 10. She already misses her sister. This will be good to spend some time alone with her. She deserves it really. I hope to make it a memorable week for her as well.

1st stand up opp!

I meet 2 times a month with a group of actors. We call it TAG (the Actors Group). I was telling a couple of my friends of my new desire to write some stand up. They were like oh you should bring what you have written to class and perform it for us .I told them that it wasn't hysterical, but if they wanted to sit through it, that would be ok with me. So the 18th of this month. I need to have enough material to do at least 2 - 5 minutes. That is a good start I think. We shall see. I have some delivery objectives to work on as well. I need to sum up what I am trying to say and maybe not jump around so much story to story so that my audience doesn't get confused. So I guess I will work on some of that this afternoon.

Nice Walking today

Walking today was nice. The girls and I headed out for the madison greenway trail. It was beautiful scenery. We walked a mile in and a mile out. I felt like I could go further, but I didn't want to push the girls to much. http://www.madisongreenways.org/

I was amazed how beautiful it is out there. I think that I will hike in a blanket and picnic nest time. There are plenty of places to relax there it seems.

SWIMMING TODAY MAYBE OUT OF THE QUESTIONS:(

Thoughts about decisions

Tonight, David, our pastor, talked about being in a position where you are not comfortable. He talked about when things happen, God has a greater purpose. He knows what is best.

This was very comforting to me in light of my test scores coming in this week. I have to pass this test to teach public school.

I don't know what God is about to do, I am not doubting, it is just lack of direction for me. I am just waiting and praying that whatever path I choose, He will get the glory for my life.

I have been struggling with myself about the options that are set before me. Do I want to teach? or Do I want to act? I know where my passion lies and where I feel that I could have the most impact. I know where the money lies as well. Making an extra 30,000 a year would help out the budget tremendously. So I know that he will show me where I need to go. I just want to be the most effective to effect people. I want the decisions that I make to be the ones that give me the most potential to touch peoples lives.

That is my prayer.

My first successful writing session

Our church schedule was changed due to the fire at the brewery where we usually meet. We met at 5 this evening at a church in South Huntsville. So I spent the morning cleaning and writing. It was fun for the first time. As suggested by the book I am reading, I took a noun and developed it. I wrote 2.5 pages about. It was cool to see the idea develop and go from there. I have to write and rewrite, but over all I have learned some valuable lessons this session. Write about what you know and relate to. Apply the principals of acting to this as well. Be truthful, in the moment. If someone is going to look bad, make it be you. Use your defects to poke fun at. As I am top heavy and bottom heavy and short. Don't let people be the ones to notice, you point it out and use it. Tremendous book. The Idiots Guide to Comedy Writing. (How do you underline in this format?)

So I have decided as I exercise, meditate, every day, I will write as well. I exercise 30 minutes at least, I meditate all day mostly. Instead of spending time watching people do what I want to do, I am going to do it. This is my accountability. My statement of purpose.

Great is thy faithfulness

Eric's got his offer letter yesterday. Why am I amazed that God provides? He will be making around the same amount of money and he gets an extra week vacation. I know if he didn't get that, God would have something else in store because he takes care of us constantly.

I missed having improv class last week. I am so looking toward Monday. I can't stand it. I have some reading to do in my new book. I have to take 12 -20 nouns and write something funny about them. That is challenging. We will see how it goes.

Prayer for the brewery

Tonight, many of us gathered for prayer at Old Towne. It was a very sureal moment to actually see first hand the damage. It was quite emotional actually. I was sharing with a friend after prayer time that for the first time during trials it is nice to be at peace and realize that God is in control. Even when we think we are in control we are really not. That is what I believe anyway. Eric and I are going through contract renewals again at his work. This time, it doesn't look as well as others, but again, I am at perfect peace that God is in control and will supply our needs and He will take care of us. I am reminded of a song.


HE'S BEEN FAITHFUL
Words and Music by: Carol Cymbala

In my loneliness and fear, through every pain every tear There's a God who's been faithful to me When my strength was all gone, when my heart had no song Still my God has been faithful to me
Every word He promised is true What I thought was impossible I've seen my God do
He's been faithful, faithful to me Just looking back His love and mercy I see When in my heart I have questioned And failed to believe He's been faithful, faithful to me
When my heart looked away, the many times I could not pray Even then He's been faithful to me The days I've spent so selfishly, reaching out for what pleased me Still in love He's been faithful to me
And every time I come back to Him I see Him waiting with His open arms and I know once again
He's been faithful, faithful to meJust looking back His love and mercy I seeWhen in my heart I have questioned And failed to believeHe's been faithful, faithful to me

Update on Old Towne

Old Towne Brewing Co. owner says he'd like to rebuild
Posted by Marian Accardi July 05, 2007 11:31 AM
Old Towne Brewing Co. owner and master brewer Don Alan Hankins said this morning he wants to rebuild the microbrewery that was destroyed by fire overnight.
Hankins didn't know the extent of damage to the equipment in the building, including four large fermenters. About $5,000 worth of beer that was to be shipped today was in the walk-in cooler.
"I'd like to keep Old Towne Brewing Co. going, I just don't know where," he said.
The business at 214 Holmes Ave.. represents "a couple of million dollars" worth of investment, said Hankins, and "a lot of blood, sweat and tears."
"I'm seeing all this" destruction, Hankins said, "and all I can think about is my cat." His cat, Hops, lived at the brewing business and hadn't been found as of this morning.
City building inspectors determined Thursday morning that the building is structurally unsafe, said James Tabor, the assistant fire marshal. The city's Public Works was called on to bring in heavy equipment to remove the east wall of the building and any fallen beams, he said.
"The fire marshal's office will conduct an investigation after it's safe," Tabor said. "This is going to be an all-day process, and we may be here into the night. We're trying to save the front wall," said Tabor.
Jimmy Ivey, district chief with Huntsville Fire & Rescue, said firefighters were battling the blaze inside the building for about 30 minutes when they noticed that the air-conditioning units were sagging. Firefighters were pulled from the building, and about five minutes later, the roof collapsed.

Harry Potter

On July 11, the anticipated movie comes out. The kids and I can't wait. And then the book not long after. What an exciting time. It wont be long now. I love this series. It should be interesting how this boy's life rises to the pentacle or falls to the dust. We shall read soon enough. I think the anticipation is the fun part. My favorite characters have been the main 3 and Hagrid. There are many great characters in this film though. Brilliant writing.

Christians and there grace in time of need!!!!

The ole town brewery burnt last night here in Huntsville, AL. This is where we have church. This is where many others meet to have community together. Yes, all of this is true, but the main thing is this is a dream of a man who is very special. It is sad that it is a total loss for him. Yes, he can rebuild. Yes, he can work it out, but an unexpected event as this is hard to swallow.

Lord be with Don Alan and his brewing family. May you touch him during this time of loss.

As I shared this with several people, that are Christians, I got mixed response. Some where as I saddened. Others a lot less gracious. Well, maybe he needs to change business. This from someone who is against drinking. So cold, so bitter, so sad. To hate something because of there past so much, that they don't see other people suffer. I don't understand it because I have not walked in there shoes, and I don't' want to judge them either, but it seems to me that Christians of all people would show compassion on someone in this predicament, regardless if they were anti or pro beer drinkers.

Lord, help me not judge others and try to understand where they are coming from. Help others learn the compassion that you have toward others in need regardless of who they are.

Help all Christians in the world be more like you.

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To write or not to write...

Ok to write.

I have been talking to several people about writing lately. I think I want to try stand up comedy. Ok that felt weird coming out with it just like that. I feel real vulnerable.


Anyway, I have been thinking of different things that I find funny, and I have been thinking of who makes me laugh. I find people messing up funny because they are just like me. I mess up all the time. I find Robin Williams funny and he keeps my attention. I find kids laughing funny. There is such beauty in that. The point is that I find a lot of things funny for a lot of different reasons. So the writing world is mine.


I laugh at myself all the time. I was told by a friend of mine the other day. Wendy, you are really funny. Maybe I am, but I am not willing to admit it yet.

I got a book tonight at the bookstore about writing comedy. The first tip is Don't try to make people laugh with what you write, but write what makes you laugh and then others will follow.

Where will this lead? That is a great question. I will be staying tuned in to see.

I was a little disappointed that there was no improv tonight. Oh well I had class by myself at home. lol. Once you begin this improv bit, it consumes your everyday life. You live moment to moment.


I did walk and swim today for exercise. That was good. The diet was not so good today. I am not even going to list what I consumed, but hopefully I burned it off. I have to do better tomorrow. Well until then.

The world's worst thing to say to an improv artist

Your shows are over after doing 6 shows in a week.

Wow what an amazing week for me. I performed 6 shows within 5 days. I can hardly put it into words. I am so thankful to be involved with such a wonderful group of people. I am learning so much about this craft and about myself. I am definitely growing as a person and not just because I cheated on my diet. I mean that I am growing emotionally. I love doing improv so much. I think that I have finally found where I belong. (on a stage). I know this because I would rather do improv ...

than sleep or eat.


Wow, amazing stuff.

diet journal

Today I ate

egg 2
2 pieces of toast 2
1/2 tsp. of jelly 0
1/2 cup strawberry's and fat free cool whip 0
ham and cheese sandwich 5
pretzels 2
pinto beans 1
baked potato 4
butter 1

I also walked 2 miles today.

Diet journal

Today was a good day. I got up and hit the walking track early. It was already 90 by 9:00 I think. It sure was hot. I walked about 40 minutes today. That is double what I usually do. The change of venue has helped push myself. I feel it in my leg muscles as well. Wow. It made me feel energized and good to workout today. I need to add some other exercises for toning purposes. I should get the walking routine down first.

The diet is ok. I still am not totally full blown health queen yet. I will get there. I just have to remind myself everytime I want to eat something to ask should I eat this.

Today I had

Cherrios milk and strawberries 3
pretzels 2
sandwich and black eyed peas 7
1 graham cracker and cool whip 1
soup 2
sandwich 4
tea 3 16 oz
water 0 48 oz

Total 22 points

Doing ok. I have to improve still on some things.

Thoughts

I have a couple of friends and family that are battling cancer. What an ugly disease to have. I am in a pray without ceasing mode for all of them. All you can do is pray and hope that God will heal each of them. God if you if you will heal each of them in your time. I pray for there families that you give them grace and mercy during this time. May you reveal yourself to them and allow them to feel your love, grace and strength

Day 2

Well another day another diet.

I am really struggling with finding an option for something to drink. I tried for a couple of days to go to strictly water, but I just end up feeling blotted and very thirsty wierd huh.

Here is what I had to today.

Cherrios and 1/2 cup fat free milk 3 points
pretzels 2 points
hot dog and cheese sandwich 8 points
2 graham cracker fat free cool whip 2 points
ginger ale 2 Points
tea 2 points


I went to on a 45 minute walk and it felt great.

I have had a lot of energy today due to the walk. I am a little sore though.


All is well.

I had my first official improv show with face 2 face. It was loads a fun and that is cool. I had a great first show with great partners and great audience. Another show tomorrow and We will rock I am sure. I got flowers, candy, a card and a clean downstairs from the fam when I got home. So sweet of them. I am so glad to have a supportive loving family and friends that celebrates my success. I have not arrived, but I am getting there one step at a time.






wendy

Started the old diet again

Yep after 3 years of being skinny me, After changing jobs, houses, cities and going back to school, I have managed to put on about 20 pounds.

My weight loss journey started about 3 1/2 years ago. I decided I was tired of weighing almost 200 pounds. After 6 months, I had lost 60 pounds. I was smaller than I had been in along time. It is a daily struggle for me. I found healthier food I like to eat and learned to not eat so much. The overwhelming stress of situations can sometimes throw us off our horse and that is what happened to me. Mainly school. I did manage to stay in the 130's until I went back to school. Now I am pushing 150. I have to at least lose 12 pounds to get back where I feel good about myself and my clothes fit me comfortable. It want take long, but It is just doing it.

Today, I have eaten,

3/4 cups of cheerios and 1/2 fat free milk 3
1/2 cup of grapes 1
pretzels 2
ham and cheese sandwich 5
crackers and cheese 3
2 graham crackers 2

Total of 16 weight watchers points

I will have a sandwich and beans for dinner

That will put me over a couple of points for today.

I have been drinking only water today that is hard for me.
I have a headache now so I must drink some more.

I have only had 1 bottle of water (I must do better on this

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The sound of laughter that is directed toward you in most cases would not be a positive thing. But for a comedian it is infectious. I did a improv show tonight. The lines were great. The audience was great. It was a good time.

On and off all day, I was getting mentally prepared to work. Just to get in the mind frame of improv. I spent an hour or so getting ready and then it was off to the show. Before the show, I was a little nervous. Once I got on stage and things got rolling, I felt a lot better. The show was on tonight. Energy was good and we rocked the world. There were a few things that I still am working through, but I am getting there. I am fighting through it. Not looking at the person I am in the scene with all of the time and realizing there is an audience out there. I am learning that preparation for me works. I am learning that if I am prepared as an improv artist, it works. And when your doing improv with people who want you to succeed that makes all of the difference. Just having a place to build trustworthy relationship with people is awesome and really there are no word beyond that to describe what you experience.


There will be more shows this weekend. I wont be preforming this weekend, but I will be there cheering my fellow improvers on.

Funny ?

I have been studying improv for about 6 months with face to face improv troop. It has been a blast. I never thought that I would be good at improv because I am not quick witted. I normally can't think at all, but thinking quickly wow what a riot. I always wanted to be one of those funny people that could drop a line and have everyone laugh till they wet there pants, but I never thought that could be possible. I always loved to tell stories or events that occurred in my life to folks, but never in a million years did I think that it would turn into a passion. I am learning at 37 (the same age Phyllis Diller started stand up) that I am funny in some weird twisted sick way. I am learning all of those people that do stand up or improv work really hard at it. Doing stand up or improv requires you to think 24 hours a day. You see people or situations and you think hmmm that would make a great character or hmmmm that seems like it would be great to add in a sketch.


The point of this rambled post is to public admit to myself that I have stumble onto a world of wonder and amazement and there are possibilities for me to be funny and other people enjoy it. There are opportunities that I never thought possible.

Some say laughter is the best medicine. I say laugh on at the funny people.

When was the last time you did something childish

I sat at the park today and made a necklace out of clover flowers. That was fun. As I sat there, I reflected on my childhood and how peaceful and beautiful it was. I always had a good time playing outside when I was young. If you haven't done anything childish lately, you should try it. I will make you smile.

I was reading readers digest in dr. office today and read these two things to Heidi as we waited on her glasses to get repaired.

Why did Mozart get rid of his chickens?

He was tired of them saying bach, bach, bach!!!!

The second thing I read was


A father had to break the news to his son that he was about to leave for Iraq.

He told his son that he was going away for awhile. And the son asked him where.
He told him to Iraq. The son asked Why? Don't you know there is a war going on over there.

That made me smile today as well.

Smile and someone will smile back :)

Moms are worth a LOT!!!

This was on CNN web site, I did not make this up.


Survey: Moms' work would bring in $138,095 a year


POSTED: 9:47 a.m. EDT, May 3, 2007

Story Highlights• 40,000 mothers responded to survey at Salary.com• Mothers explained what their job entailed, how many hours they worked• Salary.com says mothers work at least 10 jobs, put in 92 hours per week• Company used median salaries for jobs, calculated work hours for each

(Reuters) -- When Tricia Himawan was a financial analyst, she worked 50 hours a week and earned about $75,000 a year. Now, she works, by her estimation, about 119 hours a week doing 11 different jobs, and, for 10 of them, she makes ... nothing.
"I work nonstop as a mother," says Himawan, of West Orange, New Jersey, as she breast-feeds her nine-month-old son Jonas and watches over 4-year-old Juliana.
If she were paid for her work as a mother, she would be earning almost $140,000 a year.
That is the conclusion of research conducted by Salary.com, a firm based in Waltham, Massachusetts, that specializes in determining compensation. Himawan was one of 40,000 mothers who responded online to Salary.com explaining what their job entailed and how many hours they worked. (Book urges mothers to stay in work force)
The typical mother puts in a 92-hour work week, the company concluded, and works at least 10 jobs. In order of hours spent on them per week, these are: housekeeper, day-care center teacher, cook, computer operator, laundry machine operator, janitor, facilities manager, van driver, chief executive officer and psychologist. By figuring out the median salaries for each position, and calculating the average number of hours worked at each, the firm came up with $138,095 -- three percent higher than last year's results. (Audio Slide Show: Evolution of motherhood)
Even mothers who work full-time jobs outside the home put in $85,939 worth of work as mothers, according to Salary.com.
"My work is my family right now, and my backbone is about to break," says Himawan, who now also works at home as a real-estate broker."My baby is on my hip 24 hours a day."

Schools Out! My exception speech!

Yeah!!!! Schools out for me as of yesterday. I am so glad. I had a melt down physically and I am still recovering.

I would like to thank God for getting me through this. Wow, how amazing. He has made his presence known to me many times through out this experience.

I would like to thank my darling husband Eric. He has been so supportive through this journey. He has been sacrificial and understanding during times that I was focused on my school work alone. I love you honey.

I would like to thank my kids for being understanding as well. There were times that I just couldn't play with them, and they were great about that. I love you guys to.

I would like to thank all of my family and friends for their babysitting and support. Wow, you guys know who you are. You are amazing support system to me and I would never make it through life without you. Thanks for your prayers and continued support.

Thank you all for making this the best experience ever.

Amazing Moments

Yesterday on my way to school, I decided to pop in an old Water Deep CD just for fun. It turned out to be an amazing moment. It is one of those moments where you were there and God was there and we had an awesome time together.

As I began singing along and listening to God's spirit speak to me, I was blown away. There is this one song that really spoke to me here are the lyrics

Praise the Lord, O my soul and all my deepest parts

Give praise to the One Who pulled you out of darkness

Tender mercy You forgive me, slow to anger, quick to love (repeat 2X's)

Bridge: As high as the mountains try
Your love falls all around me
As wide as the east to west
My sins are taken from me


I began to think of how God not only pulled me out of sin, but pulled me out of a place where I condemned others for the same thing I was. I began to think how God has opened my eyes in the last 6 months to the real need for his love, mercy, grace and peace in the world. I began to think what can I do today to use what he has given me today to touch someone's life. Not so they could come to church with me, not so I could win them to Christ, not so I could say I did something, but just for the sake of loving people through Christ. So you know what happened. I did it. And yesterday rocked. I want to do that everyday of my life. I am going to attempt to, but I know the spirit is willing, but the flesh is definitely weak. God please help me to wake up and be you to them in every waking moment. Amen.

One more Test

I took another test today. I got 23 questions out of 25 right with the Lords help. I am almost done with the school thing. It seems like yesterday that I just started planning on going to school and now I am almost done. I am stoked about it. I have another test next week and then 2 more on the 30th. Then I have to take the Praxis test and ATTP. Then I will be for real certified.

It will be cool to see what is next in my journey. I am pretty stoked to see what is in store. I used to look at the unknown with fear, but now it is pretty much like Christmas morning everyday. lol.

Anticipating ......

God and his infinite mercy are rich. I love to feel him drawing us to him. I love to know and see he is working in my life. It is amazing to know that God has something instore for you and your life, but not knowing what that is. It is like Christmas eve when you were 5. You can't wait to open up the gift God has for you. I look foward to everyday to see how God will use me now. It is a new mindset really. I anticipate him to use me. I wait for him to use me. It is not a matter of if, but when will it happen.

Easter and Friends

I think of the last hours of freedom and privacy that Jesus spent. In those finally hours. He surrounded hiself with Friends. Those people that he loved and trusted and shared with. Those people who probably knew him the best. If we were in the same place as he was? If we knew that this was our last hour. Who would we surround ourselves with? Who are those people that we love, share and who know us best.?

Acting is so cool!!!!

Started back to classes yesterday. I got my last 2 exams back and passed with a 85 and 86. God is so amazing to take someone like me and guide me through school at my age. Amazing.

I also had improv last night. Great fun. I love working with those guys. We have shows this weekend at Java Jaay's in Decatur and Kenny Mango's in Huntsville. This craft of acitng has so many sides to it. It is fun learning each one of them.


I love acting and all of my acting friends.

Enjoyed the Break

Well school starts back tomorrow. I have enjoyed spring break emmensely. I almost got to feeling normal for me again. I don't have to much longer in school so that is very exciting. The fun part of not being in school was being able to get to know people at church a little bit better by being able to attend a couple of functions. I attended a picnic and journey group which was amazing. I am learning so much about being missional. My whole life I have been involved in church, I have never expeirenced God in this way. I am more aware of his presence around me and I see him move on a daily basis. It is nice to be in a place were the grace of God abides. I see changes in my husband, kids and myself that are amazing. I know only God can do what has been done. I am reminded of a song that I sang as as a kid that sums it all up. He's still working on me to make we what I ought to be. It took him just to week to make the moon and the stars the sun and the earth and jupiter and mars how loving and patient he must be. He's still working on me.

Does anyone even use this anymore?

As I have been out of the blogging lupe for several months, I come to find that several new things have developed, my space and some other blog form. Well for now, give me blogger or give me blogger death. lol. My life has been nuts, but good. Where to begin. I guess School.

School has been crazy amazing. I have learned so much about myself, the world, and God. He is holding my hand through all of my schooling and my life as always. I have about a B average in all of my classes, which is good for me. I am close to an A in one of my classes. We will se if I can pull an A out. Regardless, things are great and God deserves the glory for showing himself to me on a daily basis.

Moving is the next thing. Eric and I decided to move to Madison, Al for several reasons. Mainly to get close to the things we love. Our new church, acting, music and life. We have almost moved completely.


Acting is still on. I am in love with that craft, gift more now than ever. I have learned so much about myself recently doing improv classes with Eugene Banks. He is an awesome amazing actor. He is a great teacher. I have done several movies and had several auditions. Fun stuff. I am in a movie on the Lot (Stephen Spielburg reality show.

Teaching is so much fun this semester. I am teaching Film and Improv. Fun times with the both classes.

God is definitely showing himself true to me and making me understand soo much about myself and others.

over the new year and overeating

Well, after tomrrow, the new year schedule will kick in and I will be back on the routine of exercise and diet. I want to lose 12 pounds by Valentines day. That will be 6 weeks away 2 pounds a week that will be 12 pounds. If all goes well. I also will be going back to school and taking 3 classess and taking 2 acting classes. So my life will be insane. I hope to maintain working out everyday. Time will tell.

Back on the blog way!

I have decided to try the blooging road again. I have gained about 10 pounds and I really need to have somewhere to blog so that I can have a journal for losing that. I figue that is not so bad after 2 years, but I don't want to be saying 10 more in 2 more years. I started walking again yesterday. I walked on the treadmill for almost 25 minutes and my diet yesterday was ok. I could have done better. I started the day off right with cherrios and a bannana and lowfat milk. For lunch, I had a sandwich and some pretzels. Then I had a cookie and a min pack of mini m and m 's. ooops slippled a little there. For dinner I had a chicken sub from subway. Then I had another cookie. So rounds it up to about 24 points. I am supposed to have 20 points a day with 35 flex points a week. So hopefully my size 8 will fit again soon.

In acting news, I had to shoots this months. That was so awesome. I was extatic that I actually got paid for one. The other was a promotional favor for a friend. I also started takin improv classess with Face2Face improv. I am learning so much. I still am taking classes my F.X. Vitolo, but we haven't met in awhile due to his busy busy schedule.

One more thing, I have decided to go back to school to update my teaching certificate. I start Jan. 8th. I am a little nervous. I hope all goes well and I have no big issues.


WEll other than trying to move, acting, homeschooling, going back to school and losing weight, nothing much is going on. I am learning a lot and will share once I organzie my thoughts. later gator.

Don't have a heart attack

My life is pretty crazy. I have been busy getting school started and pursuing my life long dream of becoming and actress. Crazy as it sounds. I am enjoying it very much. Life is good. It can make you scream sometime, but that is what it is all about. The other day I was reminded of Trust in the lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him and he will direct your paths.

I am keeping my head up and following no one but him.

I will no longer follow man or beast. They are very simalar in my experiences.

Trusting people I have found to be very dangerous. It is something you get messed up with time and time again and eventually you realize that you can only truly trust in the lord he is the only person that you can truly depend on not to change.

hello

Hadn't posted in awhile wanted to so there i go.

amazingly put.

This was my devotion this morning. Our walk with God is sometimes restrained by routine. Read your bible pray everyday. Oh to be so sensitive to his spirit that you can sense when he is speaking to you and know when to speak to him. Read below and enjoy.

www.rbc.org/utmost/

The Delights of His Friendship. Genesis 18 brings out the delight of true friendship with God, as compared with simply feeling His presence occasionally in prayer. This friendship means being so intimately in touch with God that you never even need to ask Him to show you His will. It is evidence of a level of intimacy which confirms that you are nearing the final stage of your discipline in the life of faith. When you have a right-standing relationship with God, you have a life of freedom, liberty, and delight; you are God’s will. And all of your commonsense decisions are actually His will for you, unless you sense a feeling of restraint brought on by a check in your spirit. You are free to make decisions in the light of a perfect and delightful friendship with God, knowing that if your decisions are wrong He will lovingly produce that sense of restraint. Once he does, you must stop immediately.

fun times

We survived the sleep over. It went well. I actually got to sleep around 2:30. The last of the girls went to sleep around 5:30, so I was told. They all had a blast. I had fun time to.

I heard from an submission yesterday. I hope that I will hear more from them. It is a sag indy film and that would be great for me. good experience and lots of fun.

It is off to church this morning. I have to be there in 45 minutes so I must be off of the computer now.

busy busy buys

It has been a busy past couple of days. I have started planning with my Franklin again and I have accomplished a lot the past few days. It helps me foccus on what it important that is for sure.

Holly has her first spend the night party this weekend. She is growing up. I is so cool to see her mature into a young lady.

Get to film today. That will be fun. It is a short for the church I attend. I t is good to actually get some more experience behind the camerea.

oscar's

Way to go phil.


Happy birthday today to Holly my oldest. I can't believe that she is another year older.

An Actor's holiday

That is today. The oscar's are tonight and I will be watching. Philiph Seymour Hoffman will hopefully take home the oscar. I will be going to church here in a bit and then I will be heading to work, then to Kathy's for the oscar party. It will be fun. Break a leg Phil.

hi ho hi ho

it is off to work i go in about 40 minutes. My family is gone out of town for the day and I am going to work. I wee bit sad about it, but such is life. It is nice to have a good friend. One who trust you and feels they can be honest around you. They are not out to hurt you by trying to get one thing up on you to make you try to look stupid so they look better. They genuinely care about you. It is nice to be a friend with someone who is the same as you.

a planning I go

I believe that I am going to start planning again. Using the franklin system. I really feel like that I need to relive the I beam principle and start living by it. I need to set goals for myself and make me who I want to be.

personal day

Today is one of those crazy hormonal days where nothing goes right. I can't even stand up right in my own eyes. I hate days that are like this. I woke up late had to help Heidi finish up her science project and give both dogs a bath go run an errand come back and do more house work and I have to get ready to go to a job that I hate. That is the negative story. Here is the way it should go

Because I am so blessed to have a nice home and comfortable sofa, I just didn't get up this morning until I had to. I had the joyous experience of spending time with my daughter and helping her finish her science project. Then I enjoyed bathing my dogs and making them look so cute and cuddle. Then I got to go and do a favour for a friend who really needed my help. Now I get to spend time making my house a clean enviroment for my wonderful family to relax and enjoy and to make the day extra special, I get to go to work and spend time serving my people out of my community helping them make their live easier. Then I get to come home go to bed and do it all again tomorrow.


God I wished that I would have a rosier look on life. I want to have the second outlook.

so much to say

but the words just don't flow. I guess you would say that I am speechless. That is funny seeing I know how much I talk. I am just beside myself and I have so much going on in my head right now that it is hard for me to pin point what is going on up there. hmm.

I know that I have decided that if I don't do film and plays here that I want do them where I am going so I have decided to be more proactive about that. I don't know what direction that I am going to take, but I am going to take some kind of direction. I am looking for a camerea that I can get. That is going to be the long process seeing that we are in the middle of trying to get re foccussed on debt reduction. Maybe I will figure out something.

well that is all that emptiess out at the moment.

Emotional roller coaster

Class was amazing tonight. I didn't know that it was possible to experience every emotion on the planet within 4 to 5 hours. insane and exhausting.

I was thinking on my drive home how that we are so judgemental. We judge people so much. We automatically think we know somebody just because they do this or that or wear this or act this way. It has dawned on me that I am guilty at judging the book by its cover thing.

been busy

This weekend was very busy. We (eric and I ) had a great time. I was off fri - sun. It was really nice to be off, to be home, It is pretty amazing how much work does effect my attitude. I was glad to be able to spend the weekend celebrating eric's birthday which happens to be today. Now I dont' feel bad about going to class tonight. Sunday was the best actually. We went out cache and stumbled upon this gorgeous spot in sipsy. I will post some pictures later. We are in the middle of the great computer change up. hee hee. pictures are unavailable at the moment. It was a good time. I am in the process of trying to prepare for class tonight It is a little frustrating in that I am struggling to find the right activity for class. All is well though.

Science fair is this week and we are trying to finish up heidi's volcano. Now I remeber why I didn't do the science fair much in school. I am sure we will survive.

Thus a day in the life of a wife and mother.

great short

This is a great short film that this guys shot. Cool stuff.


http://www.atomfilms.com/af/content/atom_1014

Hard working people get something nice!!!

It is nice to see hard working people win the lottery.


http://www.cnn.com/2006/US/02/22/powerball.winners/index.html

Ahhh Refreshing!!!!!!!!!!

That is what my acting class is. It is so cool to be around people who are into the same thing you are. We had a great class last night and learned a lot. Two of my friends just got back from vegas and they were telling me about this ride there. Check this out. The kids pipe in and say oh are we going there on vacation. oh I don't think so.

http://www.insanityride.com/


peace

Back to class

Tonight I am headed to class for the first time in about 1 month. I have really missed it a lot. I haven't been every week since November.

The girls got money for valentine's day to see Narnia at the movies. It was a pretty good movie. I must say. The little girl who plays lucy was really a good little actress. I didn't care for the white witch. I think that part could have been played a little better. Darker really. I guess for the kiddies sake, they refrained. The principal of the story is pretty moving all in all.

After the movie hauled it over to drum lessons after that.

well off to class.

It is time for cool change.

Yes sirs and madams. D day (D=Diet) tightness again. B day ( B= Budget) tightness again. I could go on, but I will spare you. I had to fight the urge at walmart all the good things to eat and remind myself that all that goodness only last a lifetime and whether this is cruel or not it is. I saw a man who was somewhat overweight eating a chicken tender from the deli and It snapped me to reality really quick . Do I want to ride around at walmart in a wheelchair at age 65 eating chicken or do I want to walk around anywhere doing whatever at 65. I opted on the later. So I will get through the rough week for starting on my diet strictly. I have gotten out of my routine due to vacations, christmas etc and never have gotten back into the swing of it all. I am going to try to be good so when I go to ny I can be a little bad.

I am looking for a new job that would allow me to work from home or something that will allow me to work only on the weedkay m-f. except tuesday I have class and would not want to give that up.

other than all that depressing news all is well.

My flight and hotel are confirmed

I got my flight confirmed to Ny Today. I will leave out on March 23 at 6:30 am. I have a 3 hour layover in Charolette and then on To NY. WooHoo.

M-I-C-K-E-Y M-O-U-S-E 

Being Truthful

That is what it is all about. Truth. In every aspect of our lives. Truth is religous, moral, and mostly hidden.

It is really hard to find someone in our day and time to be truthful. I believe the reason we can't be truthful is because most people can't handle the truth. If you speak the truth, most people don't want to except you because you are to harsh or just down right open. I wonder if Jesus was in the moment, truthful kind of guy. I see from scripture he probably was. Do not worry about tomorrow; tomorrow will take care of itself. Sufficient for a day is its own evil. Jesus lived truthful and he lived in the moment. I wished that I could be Jesus in the moment, truthful in the moment everyday of my life, I go against scripture and try to plan my whole life out and don't fit God into the equation most of the time. What if God tries to pull a Job on me tomorrow and I loose Everything what would I have to say about the moment prior to losing everything and the moment after. Would I be truthful in the moment or be worrying about what was going to happen next.

God please help me be truthful and in the moment with every step in this life I take.

Back into the saddle until I get thrown out again!

Our disney trip went great. The 10 Hour trip down was uneventful. We stopped about 7 hours into the trip and spent the night in Voldasta. Then got up the next morning. We found a geo cache and then we missed another one. We got to the disney property about 1:30. We checked in and even though we were early, our room was ready. We got every thing situated and then took a walk on the property. It was very nice then we got ready for dinner and went out with the whole family. My mom and dad, my sister and brother-in-law and her kids and all of my family. We went to Downtown disney's planet hollywood. Great food. Ok service. After dinner, we took a much needed walk and then headed to bed.

The next day was magic kingdom day. We had extra magic hours that day which meant we got to go in the park because we stayed on the disney property. All I can say is awesome. That is the best. We rode all the rides we really wanted to ride except space mountain and pirates of the caribean by 10:00. That is when toon town opened. we headed there and met the characters. Then we walked around the other side of the park and rod pirates of the caribean. Then it was back for Holly to ride with my sister and brother in law space mountain. Then we headed off to take a nap in the room. We got up around 5 and headed to mgm. ( I didn't care for this park so much. ) It was small. The things we did and saw were good, but way not worth the time or money. The muppet show and the star wars ride where fun.

We headed to animal kingdom the next day. It was ok. Again not as good as expected. When you think safari disney style you think wow, well it was not wow. it was more like oh that is cool. The show there were good though. The lion king show is a must see. Wow. It was a minature cirque de le sole. We went back to the room and Eric and I hit epcot alone and had a nice dinner and saw the fireworks Which were amazing.

The next day was our last day at disney. The girls wanted to go back and ride dumbo, tea cups and space mountain. WE decided to hit tomorrowland in disney as we didn't really do everything there. We had a great time. It was nice to go to the park on the last day with no agenda really. We had already ridden most everything and all of this was icing on the cake. Then it was to downtown disney for lunch at earl of sandwichs. Excellent place to eat in my opinion. Not to expensive either. Then it was to the room for a nap. Then we took the girls to epcot to see the fireworks. They were amazing. We ate at a chinese restraunt. Very nice.

The next morning we were off back home. We really didnt' want to come home, but we had to. WE made it home in about 11 hours. It was a nice trip. over all

Wendy, You just cleaned the toliet. What are you going to do next?

I am going to Disney world. lol. We leave tomorrow. It will be fun. The kids are so excited.

In other news, I will be leaving on March 23 to go NYC. Yes, that is right New York. My step mother in law will be teaching a conference there and has invited me to go with her. It is the perfect trip. It will be a riot that is for sure. My sister in law, Tara, will be meeting me there as well. It is a girls weekend that is for sure. The best part about the trip is the fact that my room and flight are taken care of and at no expense to me. Amazing.

On a spiritual note, I had a great weekend. I just love those times when things are confirmed to you through the Holy Spirit. It is pretty amazing to know that you are where God would have you and that he bears witness to you in several ways. It is awesome to know that when I wake up in the morning. I can look in the mirror and see myself as who I am and I don't have to go out in the world to impress anyone and I don't have to dress up inward self and be something I am not. God loves me just the way I am. Here is the devotion that I read this weekend. It is very much worth reading. My utmost for his highest web site.

If I am being poured out as a drink offering on the sacrifice and service of your faith, I am glad and rejoice with you all —Philippians 2:17
Are you willing to sacrifice yourself for the work of another believer— to pour out your life sacrificially for the ministry and faith of others? Or do you say, "I am not willing to be poured out right now, and I don’t want God to tell me how to serve Him. I want to choose the place of my own sacrifice. And I want to have certain people watching me and saying, ’Well done.’ "
It is one thing to follow God’s way of service if you are regarded as a hero, but quite another thing if the road marked out for you by God requires becoming a "doormat" under other people’s feet. God’s purpose may be to teach you to say, "I know how to be abased . . ." ( Philippians 4:12 ). Are you ready to be sacrificed like that? Are you ready to be less than a mere drop in the bucket-to be so totally insignificant that no one remembers you even if they think of those you served? Are you willing to give and be poured out until you are used up and exhausted— not seeking to be ministered to, but to minister? Some saints cannot do menial work while maintaining a saintly attitude, because they feel such service is beneath their dignity.

Amen

stuff to chat about

got up and got school stuff ready. I signed up with an agent in Nashville today and I ate to much and I didn't exercise. I have to at least do some yoga tonight before bed. I don't know what I am going to do with myself if I don't straighten up with my diet. well there is always tomorrow.

another one under my belt

Had another auditon in B-town today. It went well. I was first up and I took a look at the scene found my moment and went with it. They are having auditions again next weekend We will see how it goes.

All else is the samo samo house work etc.

audition

All went well yesterday. I went in and they gave me the following lines.

Oh, so you had a car accident. And you haven't called us yet? let me just> tell- things will get better as soon as you call us and let us starthelping> you with all the hassles.

or something like that I memorized it and then tried to find themoments in it and then the first time I did it, he seemed impressed. Then he gave me direction on what they were looking for. I said it like 3 more times andhe seemed happy. Then I went over to susan smith's office. She is an agent in Nashville and then that was it. The second time that I read through it. That is when he gave medirection, he said that I switched over to actor mode.

So we will see what happens all in all it was good times.

The family went with me to Nashville. We were going to tod od some geo caching, but we were missing a cable and decided to go to the music store and rei and just hang out. Eric was cracking me up last night. We had a good time.

Spent most of the morning cleaning up around the house and working on art projects. My mom came by with the girls and then it was back to cleaing. Still have more cleaning to do this afternoon, then off to work tonight. Atmosphere at work is not good really. Everybody thingks everybody could do more blah blah. Even in some cases it is true. I have my on opinions, but choose not to express them here. I just go in do my job and can be happy with that.

later

No class

I am saddend because I don't have class this week, but I do have 2 auditions that makes me feel a little better. I am still trying to decide about the 2nd audition. The experience of doing an audtion for film will be a good one. One audition is on Wednesday in Nashville and the other audition is on Saturday In B-town. I would love to see more film stuff come to North Alabama. We have such beautiful places here that would be great for films of all genre.

Work was crazy busy this weekend. I was glad when the weekend was over. I will be off from the depot tomorrow. We have drum lessons in Huntsville tomorrow afternoon. That is always fun. Heidi is improving most wonderfully.

thoughts

It has been a very busy week for me. Getting back in the grove still from the holidays. Trying to start this whole acting stuff is really keeping me busy. I meet with an agent on Wednesday next week up in Nashville. I hope to get some work from that.

I did go to the dr. I have contact dermatitist. uggh. I went Tuesday to the dr and have been on a steriod pack. I don't take meds because I am light weight, easy cheap date whatever you want to say. I don't drink alcohol for the same reason. My body doesn't handle stuff like that. So it has been an intresting week. Once I told the dr. about the last time I took meds, he cut my dose in half and so that made it easier. I would probably be dead had he not. So It is much better my neck that is. It has almost cleared completely.

Working at OD this weekend. 1 night down 3 more to go until I have another off day. Not fun, but things could be a whole lot worse. I hpe to find something new soon. I hope I get an acting job soon that would be nice.

well off to spend time with my super sexy honey.

Nice Weekend

We had a great weekend. The only bad part about it was that it ended with me having a an allergic reaction from something that we found in the woods. I guess it is some kind of skin allergy. If it doesn't get better soon, I will be going to the DR. There was a bad part, it ended.

On the acting note, Congrats to Philph Seymour Hoffman and Reese Witherspoon for winning Golden Globe awards. Also, I have been sending out headshots like crazy to try to begin my acting job journey. It is a tough road, but hey if it was easy everyone would be doing it right.

good day

It was a great day today. we went out geo caching. It was my first time and I found my first cache. I actually found 2. We took our dogs with us, and I think they enjoyed it. I had fun with them anyway. I so enjoy spending time most of all with my best friend. It is just nice to go out with no worries, agenda and just experience God's creation and it is amazing to have someone to share it with. We are so lucky to have each other. We may never be millionares, but we definitely are wealthy in our own way.

We are going to hang out with friends tonight and meet some new people. That should be fun.

Today while out caching, I learned a little history fact.
On June 14, 1821, Cotaco County name was changed to Morgan County.

3 day weekend!

It will be nice to have one of those.

We have been busy the last couple of days rearranging the girls room, our office and the playroom. It is kind of sad a little because our girls are growing up. They no longer wat baby dolls (they did keep a few) and barbie dolls. They want tv, gaming systems before you know it they will want a car. Holly is talking sleep over for her birthday. I feel like they are slipping away and will be off to college tomorrow. It is a weird feeling I have. Even though they are growing up, I feel fortunate because I am at peace to know that Eric and I still love and know each other. Our relationship is stronger than ever. We are learning God's grace everyday and how sweet it is. I am so glad that no matter if I am a new vessel or a broken one that God can use me. with all my cracks and boy do I have those.

Anyway the last couple of days have been very tiring.


On the acting note, I am really working on that southern draw of mine. I am trying to get another headshot date set up. I haven't made acting class this month due to work. Hopefully next week.

Finishing up progress reports for school, they are due this week. Classes in the morning and then 3 days off. Joy Joy. I am looking foward to spending some time with my hubby. Happy Birthday out to our good Friend Scott Henard. We love you.


Peace

back in the reality saddle

School has started back. Progress reports from last semester are due. Work is work. Trying to get some acting work. I am learning that from that aspect that it is a lot of work. Headshots, agents, lot of searching for auditions. It is not as easy as it sounds. Sure you can find all kind of theatre work around, but not much film. Unless you want to do work that would be unseemly.

But I am keeping my head held high and marching on. I believe if it is going to happen it will happen.

Oh, I am also looking for another job. We are preparing to put the girls in school next year and I am looking for a daytime job.

Acting classes are going great. I love this craft.


Otherwise, all is kicking right along. We are getting ready to go to Disney World with my parents and sister family. Then in April I will be going to New York. It will all be grand.


Big props go out to Jmo for dealing with me and my headshots. LONG STORY for another day.

me experiencing the dangers of snow on the way to the blue ridge mountains.

me riding in the blue ridge mountains 

beautiful waterfall from tellico in NC.

Acting Class and such

Well went back to class last night. I say went back because I missed the whole month of November. I had forgotten how much I enjoyed going. My teacher said I did good with my activity lesson. He also said that I need to work on being specific. Which I do. We did dirty santa and that was fun. Afterwards, we went to applebees's. That is Kathy and I did and chatted. I love that woman. She is an amazing person and friend.

Getting ready to go on our NC trip. That will be fun. I just hope that it doesn't snow until we get there and that it melts before we head home. Look for photos later.

Busy time for me right now. Lots of things going on. I want probalbly post until next week due to our trip.

Peace

Our new addition Maggie. She is a 10 week old beagle 

This is my screensaver. My 10 year old daughter took this photo at the local wilderness area. 

Busy, Busy, The holidays are here !!!!!!!

Well, the holidays are here in full swing. Craziness going on in retail during the holidays. People are so funny. I am going to be working Christmas eve. That will be fun. I will have to work from 7 till 5 probably. That will be fun times.At least I get to be off on Christmas Day and New years weekend.

We will be going out of town this weekend to N. C. to visit with Eric's dad and step mother. We are going to a resort. Fontana Damn village resort. It will be very outdoors type stuff. Hopefully we will see a little snow. Just a little though.

We have been getting used to our little puppy dog. She is a mess. The potty thing is working well. She is somewhat house broken. She has started going to the door sometimes when she has to go. If we can just get over the biting stage. I will post a photo soon. Mia is adjusting to her. She hates her and that is it. lol. Mia is our pug. So now we have a beagle and a pug.

Well that is an update and now it is off to bed.

later

The notebook

I just finished watching the notebook. It was a great movie. I cried like a baby.

From an acting note. I thought that acting in this was brillant. I thought the two younger characters did a marvelous job not to mention that Noah is hot. lol All around a geat movie.


Going to see Harry Potter tomorrow. I can't wait. The girls are so excited. They are so into HP. busy rest of the week actually.

take 1

Holly's commercial went great. We had a blast doing it. The more I am around that kind of thing, the more I realize that is what I want to do.

Harry Potter comes out this weekend, we are looking foward to it. We are going back and watching all the other movies this week and we will go see the new one hopefully this weekend sometime.

looking fowar to a great week end. Roll tide.

I am going to try to do this again

It has been awhile, sorry to anybody if they really do read this. I have been out of the blogging loop. I have plenty of excuses, but I will spare those for another post of whining later.

To update, been busy. Swimming, drumming, working, teaching.

Thinking a lot lately about many things. God has been revealing a lot of things to me in my life. who knows maybe he never stopped, I just wasn't paying attention.

Been doing a lot fo filming stuff. I participated in 48 hour film competition. That was fun stuff. My scene that I was in ended up getting cut,due to mic stand in the shot and other tech stuff. I helped write and crew the shoot. I learned a lot. I am working on my crew resume so that I can participate in that manner more. I got to do the clapboard and say scene 1 take 1. Fun Fun fun.

I have been doing a good deal of writing also. I am working on another short for my acitng class. I am helping write and will help crew that and maybe be in it. Also, I did a skit at church and am currently working on some film stuff there. Maybe one day, I can earn a living doing this. If not, I will work for food. lol. I would honestly do this for nothing for the rest of my life, I love film, theatre and such like.

Holly, my oldest will be getting in the film thing. She will be doing a commercial for a local tv station tomorrow or I should say todya. I am so excited for her. We have a little sister envy going on, but good lessons can be learned. I hope all goes well.

I missed my acting class all month due to conflicts in schedule. I really miss it to. Hopefully, December will be back to normal. we are keeping our fingers crossed.

temptation

I read this on upmost for his highest website.


We have the idea that we ought to shield ourselves from some of the things God brings around us. May it never be! It is God who engineers our circumstances, and whatever they may be we must see that we face them while continually abiding with Him in His temptations

i wonder am I overcoming the temptations God has set before me? I am going to reflect on this.

Maybe it just the full moon!!!!!!!!!!

Reading my friends blog makes me think something is up and then I remembered that it was a full moon tonight. Well, maybe that is what it was, but if not, I send love and peace to everyone of them.

My thoughts are on direction for me and my family. I know we desire to be healthy, and debt free, but we stuggle with this constantly. I can blame it on how I was raised or how I was treated, but the bottom line is blame gets you no where. Action gets you where you need to go.

I need a voodoo doll quick

It is so frustrating to me that people want do what they are supposed to. Then when you try to communicate to them that they need to _________________. They get freakin defensive and aren't grown up enough to handle someone get in there face and call them out. Especially when they know that person is only trying to help them reach certain goals they are trying to reach. It is just so frustrating to me. Why can't people be mature enough to except that they are not strong enough to handle certain things and need help. We all need help in our lives. That is why we are here to help each other. ARGHHHHHH

It has been a tiring weekend for me. I am so tired at this very moment that I can't hardly move. Now I have get up from here and clean up my house. (wash dishes, clothes, pick up stuff out of the floor, mostly dirty laundry.) I work 9-7 every other saturday and it plum wears me out.

Enough whining. I should be thankful that I have dishes and clothes to wash and a family to pick up after. Oh well, must be off to work.

It crazy to learn everything you already knew is right!!!

Through all of the religious struggle that I have been through. I came to the conclusion by the voice of God's holy spirit that the stuff that I truly knew is right. When I mean truly knew, I mean those heart felt things you know are of God and are true. We know you should not kill, we know you should not commit adultery. We know we are to trust God. Many things we know, but it is nice that God reminds us of what we already think we know. We may have it stored in the back of our brain from where a sermon was preached, but to really know something in my book is making it second nature. Making it an impulse. That is what I want to do in my life, to make my walk with God an impulse. Not in a fake way, but truthfully and impulse. Just as someone reaches out to shake my hand and I shake their hand is natural so should my daily impulses be. These are my daily impulses

love;
joy;
peace;
patience;
kindness;
goodness;
faithfulness;
gentleness;
self-control

Oh to have these daily impulse every day.

What a crazy weekend and week!!!!!!!

I am so devastated by the whole weather thing. I am to the point that I can't even watch the news anymore. I get so depressed and I start crying every time I sit down and watch the news. Seriously I do. I feeling very moved. I even said out loud today that I was going to get in my car and drive down there an pick up all of those little kids and babies that are without water and get them some. For me I feel for the kids the most. They had no choice to stay or go. They live with their parents choices. How sad that they have no water, food or toys to play with.

Heidi has been watching the news with me and she was moved to do something. She wanted to go tell the people down their that God loves them when she got older. I motivated her to do something to show the people God's love. With a little help from me, she has decided to take a couple of gallon jars to school and collect money from all of her schoolmates and donate the money to some fund to help the hurricane victims. All of this was very moving to me, but I was really moved when she brought her last weeks allowance and put it in the jar. How sweet is that.

A friend of mine who is not very wealthy at all has had 5 family members move in with him for who knows how long. They are from slidell pretty much where the hurricane came in or where the surge hit really big. I really feel for him and have decided to try to raise a little money from friends to help out with his grocery bill. That is tough. Here you are trying to make ends meet working hard and then you get 5 more attachments. That is just hard. Hopefully, I will be able to help him out a little myself.

We all definitely have something to be thankful for that is for sure.

Slow down you crazy childYou're so ambitious for a juvenileBut then if you're so smart tell me whyYou are still so afraid? Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?You better cool it off before you burn it outYou got so much to do and onlySo many hours in a day But you know that when the truth is toldThat you can get what you wantOr you an just get oldYou're gonna kick off before you even get halfway throughWhen will you realizeVienna waits for you Slow down you're doing fineYou can't be everything you want to beBefore your timeAlthough it's so romantic on the borderline tonightToo bad but it's the life you leadYou're so ahead of yourselfThat you forgot what you needThough you can see when you're wrong But you know you can't always see when you're rightYou got your passion you got your prideBut don't you know only fools are satisfied?Dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come trueWhen will you realizeVienna waits for you Slow down you crazy childTake the phone off the hookAnd disappeaar for a whileIt's alright you can afford to lose a day or twoWhen will you realizeVienna waits for you. Vienna. Billy Joel lyrics awesome song.


I watched 13 going on 30 today. Great movie for me. I always do feel like I am 35 going on 13. There is a little kid in all of us. We just have to find it and hold on to it and never let it go.

this is me now 

This was me in April 2003. Wow 

I have been thinking

Ever since the other night, I have been thinking a lot about what was said and how it relates to my life. Referring to my acting class. It is pretty amazing to me that sometimes we just don't even understand our own selves. We have an idea of who we are, but when it comes out in the wash, we are not that person. Bizarre to me. As I sat and watched my audition tape, I thought I knew what I saw in the mirror everyday. On film I was totally not what I expected. I felt pretty for the first time in my life. Glamorous. I don't mean to sound vain or conceited, but I am 30 something and I have never felt glamorous in my life until this week. I don't think that I am a dog or anything, but just average looking. Plain and simple. Low maintence whatever. I am not all what I think that I am on the inside either. I am selfish, ego maniac, who thinks everything should be about me. I draw attention to myself on pupose. I direct the conversation to include me by telling relational stories so that I feel like I belong. That is my destination in life I think. To belong, to identify. For once, I am trying not to even care what anyone thinks about me. I am trying to be and say how I feel and not worry about the outcome of others. If they choose to get offended or mad or hurt, that is their business. I just want to be me. I probably want fulfill what I just said because I do care what you think. I do want people to like me. I bring crudeness on myself most of the time. Short jokes, dumb jokes, whatever is the joke of choice. I play into it, not on purpose mind you. I just say what I think which most don't to avoid looking stupid. I just say it without thinking and fall into the trap of being a joke. Not taken seriously.

My next thought is why do I judge people for the things they say. Oh he is smart, oh she is such an idiot, oh that is a valid point she made etc. Why can't I just sit and listen and not be judgmental? Why can't I be excepting of other people? Why do I always think that person is not cool. That person is an idiot. Where is the grace?

Enough thought.

I am going to disneyworld

Well, it is official we (my family extened included) are going to disney world in February. I made reservations today. mom, dad, bridgett, rod, hannah allie, eric holly, heidi and me will head off into the sunset to see the one and only mickey mouse request of the grandparents . The begged and pleaded for our munchkins to go so we are going.

Acting class was so different last night. Everyone was really tired and we were down in numbers. We were going to do our scences, but we had a great discussion which was very profitable and then we watched our audition tape. It was hard to believe that it was actually me on the screen. All the work that I put into the auditon really paid off. I was pleased. It is really important to live moment by moment and not let things around you bring you down. Have joy where you are even at office depot I need that. I have got to find that happy place there. I have got to find a place at work that I can go to and be able to leave the spinning that goes on there.


Life is great. for me.

My husband should not enrage people!!!!

Not to take away from the story in the paper, but this was the title on the Decatur Daily on line. It cracked me up because that is what My husband Eric is called some times "E"

People seeing ‘E’ turn enraged http://www.decaturdaily.com/decaturdaily/index.shtml


Wow what a busy weekend! Work is getting crazier by the minute. More crap to put up with. I am trying to keep a positive attitued about it, but it just want happen. I want to throw a 2 year old tantrum last night, but refrained.

Must go to drum lesson then acting class tonight. It should be a good time.


I have been trying tackle the treadmill 3 times a week to keep myself maintaining. I stay hungry a lot more, but am still trying to eat the same. Headed now to exercise away.

good day, good night

I had a good day today. I talked with a long lost friend. My friend Kim Carrol Gray. We haven't spoken in 10 years. She saw me at work and I got her number and called her. It was nice talking with her. We are going to get together for lunch on Monday. It should be fun.

Eric and I talked about me quiting work and pursuing my acting thing. I struggle to do that because we are still working to get out of debt. We will see what happens with that.

OFF

I am off today and tomorrow, how wonderful it will be. yeah. I work the weekend and I am not looking foward to it. I am trying not to think about it. Work has been horrible the last couple of weeks due to back to school.

Today, I am going to go run on the treadmill, then come home clean house and watch a movie probably. Then work on some of the scripts that I have. Spend some time with the family. Especially, I want to spend some time with Eric because I haven't seen him much in the last 2 days going on 3. It will be fun day.

acting class

Just got home from my oasis. (acting class). I love it. It is awesome. We have a great time. Tonigh we were all auditoning for a movie that is to be made in California. It is great experience thanks to our wonderful teacher. His produciton company will be putting this movie on. It should be cool to see if any of us get a part in this movie, and if we don't it was cool to work the audition thing for me. At this moment, I had a great time. That is what you live for moment to moment.


Furgetaboutit

furgeitaboutit

No that is not a misspelling. I watched Donnie Brasco yesterday and I love that from the movie. It is a word that has multiple meanings. so forget about it alright.

Work freaking sucked tonight. I got off at 12:15. Crazy. People are more nuts at back to school than they are at Christmas. Freaking nut cases that come up with the school supply list. I am just thankful that I homeschool and don't have to do all of that crap. baby wipes for an 8th grader. wt.


I will be off tomorrow. I have a busy day planned though meeting in the morning at 10:00.

then back home to clean house, cook dinner, and iron clothes for tomorrow night. take heidi to drum lessons, get my hair done for the audition, then go to acitng class. Auditions tommorow for the film in California. keep your fingers crossed that I will break a leg.

Early reflections

I am up early this morning for no apparent reason. I just am.

I have got to stop eating so much. I have been eating to many points (weight watchers).

I haven't really gained weight. I flucuate here and there. Up and down. I just have to start on the losing track again. I need to lose about 10 more pounds.

I must stay in good health. I must. I just read an intresting article on alzheimer's disease. They say that dieabetes and high insulin levels are an attributer and genetics. My grandmother had it. It is one way I don't want to go out that is for sure.

So for me I am going to get back on board the weight loss train. hee hee.

Acting stuff is going well still. Class was fun the other night. Tuesday brings another audition. This is such great experience for me if nothing else.

WEll I am off to read some blogs and maybe back to bed for 1 hour or so.

acting update

Things are pretty well for me. I have got to get back into the swing of posting everyday or at least every other.

Acting wise, I have more work than I have in a long time. Meaning. I am preparing for several auditons, and working on a skit at church. I am have so much fun. Plus, I have material to work on for my class. It is all to much fun. I didn't get the part for one of the things I auditoned for, but it was a great experience for me to actually experience a true film audition.

Work on the other hand is a little stressful at the moment. I hate back to school worse than Christmas. ARGH. I guess to be on the thankful side of things at least their is a demand for school supplies so that I can keep my job.

I have class tonight so I must go rehearse.

Charlie and the chocolate factory was

excellent. I had to think about it for a day before I could actually say how I felt. Johnny Depp is just brillant. He is as real as it gets. The guy that plays charlie is very believable as well. It was the weirdest movie I have ever watched. Well there was Fight Club.


I heard today that I didn't get the part in the b-town movie, but that one of my friends did. I was cool with that. She is so deserving and a great actress. I am very excited for her. I am not just saying that.


Still rehearsing for the california movie auditon. It will be videod in Huntsville. It is pretty fun. Hopefully, if I am not cast for the roll that I am auditioning for, that I will be cast at least for an extra. We will see.


I love my new take on life. Be honest, be truthful and don't let anyone get you down.

What's it like, Neverland?

One day I'll take you there


From Finding Neverland

I got scripts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I now have 4 scripts I am working on. It is crazy for sure. I have 2 auditons coming up. I love it. I am pumped about all of this.

Good b'day for me. worked, cooked,swam, grocery shopped, saw my granny. In reverse order, hee hee. The work part wasn' t so fun, but whose work is, unless you are a movie star. hee hee. Oh well, Life goes on.