Amazing Moments

Yesterday on my way to school, I decided to pop in an old Water Deep CD just for fun. It turned out to be an amazing moment. It is one of those moments where you were there and God was there and we had an awesome time together.

As I began singing along and listening to God's spirit speak to me, I was blown away. There is this one song that really spoke to me here are the lyrics

Praise the Lord, O my soul and all my deepest parts

Give praise to the One Who pulled you out of darkness

Tender mercy You forgive me, slow to anger, quick to love (repeat 2X's)

Bridge: As high as the mountains try
Your love falls all around me
As wide as the east to west
My sins are taken from me


I began to think of how God not only pulled me out of sin, but pulled me out of a place where I condemned others for the same thing I was. I began to think how God has opened my eyes in the last 6 months to the real need for his love, mercy, grace and peace in the world. I began to think what can I do today to use what he has given me today to touch someone's life. Not so they could come to church with me, not so I could win them to Christ, not so I could say I did something, but just for the sake of loving people through Christ. So you know what happened. I did it. And yesterday rocked. I want to do that everyday of my life. I am going to attempt to, but I know the spirit is willing, but the flesh is definitely weak. God please help me to wake up and be you to them in every waking moment. Amen.

One more Test

I took another test today. I got 23 questions out of 25 right with the Lords help. I am almost done with the school thing. It seems like yesterday that I just started planning on going to school and now I am almost done. I am stoked about it. I have another test next week and then 2 more on the 30th. Then I have to take the Praxis test and ATTP. Then I will be for real certified.

It will be cool to see what is next in my journey. I am pretty stoked to see what is in store. I used to look at the unknown with fear, but now it is pretty much like Christmas morning everyday. lol.

Anticipating ......

God and his infinite mercy are rich. I love to feel him drawing us to him. I love to know and see he is working in my life. It is amazing to know that God has something instore for you and your life, but not knowing what that is. It is like Christmas eve when you were 5. You can't wait to open up the gift God has for you. I look foward to everyday to see how God will use me now. It is a new mindset really. I anticipate him to use me. I wait for him to use me. It is not a matter of if, but when will it happen.

Easter and Friends

I think of the last hours of freedom and privacy that Jesus spent. In those finally hours. He surrounded hiself with Friends. Those people that he loved and trusted and shared with. Those people who probably knew him the best. If we were in the same place as he was? If we knew that this was our last hour. Who would we surround ourselves with? Who are those people that we love, share and who know us best.?

Acting is so cool!!!!

Started back to classes yesterday. I got my last 2 exams back and passed with a 85 and 86. God is so amazing to take someone like me and guide me through school at my age. Amazing.

I also had improv last night. Great fun. I love working with those guys. We have shows this weekend at Java Jaay's in Decatur and Kenny Mango's in Huntsville. This craft of acitng has so many sides to it. It is fun learning each one of them.


I love acting and all of my acting friends.

Enjoyed the Break

Well school starts back tomorrow. I have enjoyed spring break emmensely. I almost got to feeling normal for me again. I don't have to much longer in school so that is very exciting. The fun part of not being in school was being able to get to know people at church a little bit better by being able to attend a couple of functions. I attended a picnic and journey group which was amazing. I am learning so much about being missional. My whole life I have been involved in church, I have never expeirenced God in this way. I am more aware of his presence around me and I see him move on a daily basis. It is nice to be in a place were the grace of God abides. I see changes in my husband, kids and myself that are amazing. I know only God can do what has been done. I am reminded of a song that I sang as as a kid that sums it all up. He's still working on me to make we what I ought to be. It took him just to week to make the moon and the stars the sun and the earth and jupiter and mars how loving and patient he must be. He's still working on me.

Does anyone even use this anymore?

As I have been out of the blogging lupe for several months, I come to find that several new things have developed, my space and some other blog form. Well for now, give me blogger or give me blogger death. lol. My life has been nuts, but good. Where to begin. I guess School.

School has been crazy amazing. I have learned so much about myself, the world, and God. He is holding my hand through all of my schooling and my life as always. I have about a B average in all of my classes, which is good for me. I am close to an A in one of my classes. We will se if I can pull an A out. Regardless, things are great and God deserves the glory for showing himself to me on a daily basis.

Moving is the next thing. Eric and I decided to move to Madison, Al for several reasons. Mainly to get close to the things we love. Our new church, acting, music and life. We have almost moved completely.


Acting is still on. I am in love with that craft, gift more now than ever. I have learned so much about myself recently doing improv classes with Eugene Banks. He is an awesome amazing actor. He is a great teacher. I have done several movies and had several auditions. Fun stuff. I am in a movie on the Lot (Stephen Spielburg reality show.

Teaching is so much fun this semester. I am teaching Film and Improv. Fun times with the both classes.

God is definitely showing himself true to me and making me understand soo much about myself and others.

over the new year and overeating

Well, after tomrrow, the new year schedule will kick in and I will be back on the routine of exercise and diet. I want to lose 12 pounds by Valentines day. That will be 6 weeks away 2 pounds a week that will be 12 pounds. If all goes well. I also will be going back to school and taking 3 classess and taking 2 acting classes. So my life will be insane. I hope to maintain working out everyday. Time will tell.

Back on the blog way!

I have decided to try the blooging road again. I have gained about 10 pounds and I really need to have somewhere to blog so that I can have a journal for losing that. I figue that is not so bad after 2 years, but I don't want to be saying 10 more in 2 more years. I started walking again yesterday. I walked on the treadmill for almost 25 minutes and my diet yesterday was ok. I could have done better. I started the day off right with cherrios and a bannana and lowfat milk. For lunch, I had a sandwich and some pretzels. Then I had a cookie and a min pack of mini m and m 's. ooops slippled a little there. For dinner I had a chicken sub from subway. Then I had another cookie. So rounds it up to about 24 points. I am supposed to have 20 points a day with 35 flex points a week. So hopefully my size 8 will fit again soon.

In acting news, I had to shoots this months. That was so awesome. I was extatic that I actually got paid for one. The other was a promotional favor for a friend. I also started takin improv classess with Face2Face improv. I am learning so much. I still am taking classes my F.X. Vitolo, but we haven't met in awhile due to his busy busy schedule.

One more thing, I have decided to go back to school to update my teaching certificate. I start Jan. 8th. I am a little nervous. I hope all goes well and I have no big issues.


WEll other than trying to move, acting, homeschooling, going back to school and losing weight, nothing much is going on. I am learning a lot and will share once I organzie my thoughts. later gator.

Don't have a heart attack

My life is pretty crazy. I have been busy getting school started and pursuing my life long dream of becoming and actress. Crazy as it sounds. I am enjoying it very much. Life is good. It can make you scream sometime, but that is what it is all about. The other day I was reminded of Trust in the lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him and he will direct your paths.

I am keeping my head up and following no one but him.

I will no longer follow man or beast. They are very simalar in my experiences.

Trusting people I have found to be very dangerous. It is something you get messed up with time and time again and eventually you realize that you can only truly trust in the lord he is the only person that you can truly depend on not to change.

hello

Hadn't posted in awhile wanted to so there i go.

amazingly put.

This was my devotion this morning. Our walk with God is sometimes restrained by routine. Read your bible pray everyday. Oh to be so sensitive to his spirit that you can sense when he is speaking to you and know when to speak to him. Read below and enjoy.

www.rbc.org/utmost/

The Delights of His Friendship. Genesis 18 brings out the delight of true friendship with God, as compared with simply feeling His presence occasionally in prayer. This friendship means being so intimately in touch with God that you never even need to ask Him to show you His will. It is evidence of a level of intimacy which confirms that you are nearing the final stage of your discipline in the life of faith. When you have a right-standing relationship with God, you have a life of freedom, liberty, and delight; you are God’s will. And all of your commonsense decisions are actually His will for you, unless you sense a feeling of restraint brought on by a check in your spirit. You are free to make decisions in the light of a perfect and delightful friendship with God, knowing that if your decisions are wrong He will lovingly produce that sense of restraint. Once he does, you must stop immediately.

fun times

We survived the sleep over. It went well. I actually got to sleep around 2:30. The last of the girls went to sleep around 5:30, so I was told. They all had a blast. I had fun time to.

I heard from an submission yesterday. I hope that I will hear more from them. It is a sag indy film and that would be great for me. good experience and lots of fun.

It is off to church this morning. I have to be there in 45 minutes so I must be off of the computer now.

busy busy buys

It has been a busy past couple of days. I have started planning with my Franklin again and I have accomplished a lot the past few days. It helps me foccus on what it important that is for sure.

Holly has her first spend the night party this weekend. She is growing up. I is so cool to see her mature into a young lady.

Get to film today. That will be fun. It is a short for the church I attend. I t is good to actually get some more experience behind the camerea.

oscar's

Way to go phil.


Happy birthday today to Holly my oldest. I can't believe that she is another year older.

An Actor's holiday

That is today. The oscar's are tonight and I will be watching. Philiph Seymour Hoffman will hopefully take home the oscar. I will be going to church here in a bit and then I will be heading to work, then to Kathy's for the oscar party. It will be fun. Break a leg Phil.

hi ho hi ho

it is off to work i go in about 40 minutes. My family is gone out of town for the day and I am going to work. I wee bit sad about it, but such is life. It is nice to have a good friend. One who trust you and feels they can be honest around you. They are not out to hurt you by trying to get one thing up on you to make you try to look stupid so they look better. They genuinely care about you. It is nice to be a friend with someone who is the same as you.

a planning I go

I believe that I am going to start planning again. Using the franklin system. I really feel like that I need to relive the I beam principle and start living by it. I need to set goals for myself and make me who I want to be.

personal day

Today is one of those crazy hormonal days where nothing goes right. I can't even stand up right in my own eyes. I hate days that are like this. I woke up late had to help Heidi finish up her science project and give both dogs a bath go run an errand come back and do more house work and I have to get ready to go to a job that I hate. That is the negative story. Here is the way it should go

Because I am so blessed to have a nice home and comfortable sofa, I just didn't get up this morning until I had to. I had the joyous experience of spending time with my daughter and helping her finish her science project. Then I enjoyed bathing my dogs and making them look so cute and cuddle. Then I got to go and do a favour for a friend who really needed my help. Now I get to spend time making my house a clean enviroment for my wonderful family to relax and enjoy and to make the day extra special, I get to go to work and spend time serving my people out of my community helping them make their live easier. Then I get to come home go to bed and do it all again tomorrow.


God I wished that I would have a rosier look on life. I want to have the second outlook.

so much to say

but the words just don't flow. I guess you would say that I am speechless. That is funny seeing I know how much I talk. I am just beside myself and I have so much going on in my head right now that it is hard for me to pin point what is going on up there. hmm.

I know that I have decided that if I don't do film and plays here that I want do them where I am going so I have decided to be more proactive about that. I don't know what direction that I am going to take, but I am going to take some kind of direction. I am looking for a camerea that I can get. That is going to be the long process seeing that we are in the middle of trying to get re foccussed on debt reduction. Maybe I will figure out something.

well that is all that emptiess out at the moment.