Thursday, September 30, 2004


All in all it was a crazy day for me. Heidi woke me up this morning a 7:00 to remind me we had homeschool classes at 9:00. I rolled back over and went to sleep until 8. Got up and headed out to teach around 50 kids pe.

Ran some errands and then I had to go take a pee pee test for my new possible job at Office Depot. My brain must have lapsed or something. (This happens quite a bit). Right before I headed over to the clinic to take the drug test, I went to the bathroom. So when I got there I couldn't even fill up half of the cup. So I had to retake the test 30 minutes later. No problem that time.

I hope to get a good night sleep. I am headed to shower and to bed.

One thing I did notice was how beautiful the moon was tonight. It reminded me that God allows it to rise every night. Just as that is the case, He allows me to breathe everyday. It was a reminder that he is in control of my wacky life.

God help me through all my wackiness to find you.

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Still Up

Wow, I hate making changes in my life like jobs and such. I get a little anxious and can't sleep. Even though the changes are exciting and for the best, I still get anxious. I guess I should just trust God to take care of all of it. Conciously I try, but my subconcious takes over. Here it is 1:40 in the morning. I have classes to teach at 9:00 in the morning and I can't sleep. My alarm is going to go off in less than 6 hours and here I sit. Oh well must try to go to sleep I guess.

Day in the Life

Got in bed at 3 this morning couldn't sleep due to anxiety. I hate restless nights because I love sleep. Mom woke me up and I went with her and the kids to my grandmother's house. I had to go visit. It has been awhile since I last saw her. I felt kind of guilty since she only lives 15 minutes from my house. Life is has been pretty busy. (Lame excuse). I love my grandmother so much. My goal is to visit her more. I feel like my life is just very busy stuff. I get up every morning do the exercise thing, then the school thing, then clean the house thing, then work thing, then if there is nothing planned the family thing, then I go to bed to get up and start over again. Even though I stay busy, I love it. The weekends are nice.

I headed over to office depot for an interview. I am trying to get a job making more monay so we can spend more monay. That is the way I feel sometimes. The dream of being debt free seems just to be a dream. We lose sight so many times, but I keep telling myself it will be a reality one day.

About to head out of the house for awhile. Last night did me in. I sat and veged out a little to much.

I should find out about the job at office depot soon. I will have to start working at least every other weekend, but they close at 7 on Saturday and Sunday they open 12-6. We will see. I have some other job opps that I am waiting to hear from, this is the one that seems to be the one that is opening. for me right now.

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

Back in the saddle

Here I am back in the saddle again. I thought I would follow in the footsteps of the old man. Also, I really missed doing this.