Saturday, January 29, 2005

Long time, no type

It has been several days since I updated my blog. wow. I didn't realize it has been so long. I have been extremely busy though. Also, I have an allergy attack. I cleaned out the filter in my vacumn cleaner. It is one of those bagless kinds. Dust got up in my sinus cavity. It has left me with a nasty sinus cold. Many of you will be glad to know that I am losing my voice. It actually comes and goes. Your prayers have been answered.

I have been trying to contact and old friend. I don't know what is going on. She want return my calls. I left a message with her mom to call me. If I remember correctly, she is a procrastinator. I was trying to get in touch with her so a bunch of my old friends could have lunch together. We will see if that will happen. This girl I am reffering to is one of my best friends from school. We loved Wham, David letterman. She introduced me to some cool music. We would quote movies together. We played tennis together. It was fun times. I have an overwhelming desire to get in touch with her for some reason. Who knows/

All is ok here at the home front.

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Dave Ramsey was right

He said when you got serious about paying off debt things would go wrong. I took the girls to the dentist today. Heidi is missing permanent teeth according to x rays. Holly' s permanent teeth are to big for the space allowed, she needs more room. So she has to have 8 teeth pulled 4 at a time. After insurance, it will cost around 300 dollars to get this work done. I am afraid if we do nothing, more money will have to be spent later on. It is not that we wont have the money but that is 300 dollars that wont go to debt. Life is full of issues like this. It is hard to stay foccused on this. I can't wait to get settled into paying off bills. A couple of months from now when things are stable or more stable that will be wonderful.

I am back in the saddle on my diet. I am eating around 20 points a day on the weight watchers guidelines. It doesn't sound like a lot, but it is plenty to survive on. Oh well, I want to lose 10 more pounds and tone up before summer. I would love to go to the tanning bed, but I will just wait until spring comes so I can lay out and get sun the nartual way.

Justice Served

Country store becomes shootout site
Wednesday, January 26, 2005

ATLANTA, Georgia (AP) -- \When two men walked into a popular country store outside Atlanta, announced a holdup and fired a shot, owners Bobby and Gloria Doster never hesitated. The pair pulled out their own pistols and opened fire.
The armed suspect and his partner were killed. The Dosters won't be charged, according to local officials, because they were acting in self-defense.
"I just started shooting," said Gloria Doster, 56. "I was trying to blow his brains out is what I was trying to do."
Shoats Grocery & Package near Crawford, 70 miles east of Atlanta, is a well-known spot where locals stop for breakfast biscuits or lunch. Gloria Doster said the two men who came there Monday had something else in mind.
She was rearranging boxes of soda by the store's front door when a man wearing a wig walked inside, the fake hair draped in front of his face.
"I asked him, 'Can you see to walk?"' Doster said. Then she noticed a second man behind him wearing a mask. He announced a holdup.
One man grabbed Gloria Doster and pushed her toward the register. She said the other kept his gun on her 62-year-old husband, who also goes by the name Shoats.
She said she tried to open the register, but one of the men told her she wasn't moving fast enough and tried to shoot her husband. He missed -- and his gun jammed.
At that point, Bobby Doster pulled out a .380-caliber handgun and shot one of the suspects. Gloria Doster then went for a 9 mm pistol she keeps near the register.
"All hell broke loose," she said. "I was trying to shoot and dial 911 at the same time."
Both suspects took cover behind the store's meat counter as the Dosters opened fire. Gloria Doster said she doesn't know how many bullets were fired, or how many times the suspects were hit.
Police arrived about five minutes after receiving Gloria Doster's call; the suspects died a short time later at a hospital.
The bloodshed, nevertheless, startled Gloria Doster, who has been around guns all her life, and has used them for target shooting. "But I never figured I'd have to use them on anybody," she said.
She said the worst thing that's happened in the seven years the couple has owned the store was an after-hours break-in by teenagers three years ago. The burglars were promptly arrested.

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Day 2 planning

Well, I have been doing a lot today. Mostly tweaking a budget to get us on track. It is going to be tough. I can already tell for us to stay on track. It just must be done. I am probably going to turn into the mean old ogar wife and mom about money. Someone has to be th ogar, I guess. I need to take the capital one commerical and run to my family no no no no no. I spend money to. I am just cheap and don't make big purchases.

I staye up till midnight last night. I watched some stuff on Jonny Carson. Jay Leno had his whole show dedicated to him. Then, I watched Larry King show. It was all cool and brought back many memories. Oh well, times have changed as they said this is a new era.

Monday, January 24, 2005

Planning for a new year

Eric and I are starting to work on our plan for this year. Losing weight, paying off debt, and getting our family better organized to do more than watch tv and play gamecube. I would love to be debt free including our mortgage by the time I am 40. that is 6 years from now. Even if we pay off everthing except for the house. I would be thrilled. I know that the girls having a car and insurance is just around the corner. I want us to be prepared to provide for them and not have to go broke doing it. I think that we will give the girls the option to work if they want to. Just to have spending money and start saving money as well. I want them to learn how to manage money from the get go. I never did because I never had any. I didn't work very much. Eric never did because he didn't have any either. I want them to learn early that it is ok not to have everything there heart desires. Anyway enough of that rant.

I started reading Dave Ramsey's book total money makeover. I can relate a lot of my mindset to weight loss to the paying off debt. It is a pretty good book for sure.

The recovery is coming along pretty good. I am anxious to get back to my old habit of exercise and I am looking forward to having some energy. I know it is only been one week, but I just want recovery to go quicker. I miss my yoga.

Oh well, that is my life for today. I must get back to house work. I am trying to recover from the weekend

Saturday, January 22, 2005

Trying to get back to my old self.

That is just what I am trying to do. I feel like I am gaining weight. I have got to get back to losing for sure.

Recovery seems to be doing ok. My employer has really been good to me. They cut my hours considerable since I can't stand for a long period of time. Everytime, I start using those stomach muscles, I get nauseated. It is crazy that is for sure.

We got a chance to see the movie coffee and cigarettes. Very artsy movie. It was pretty intresting. I did a play similar in style in college. Anyway, on a scale of 10, I give it a 7. So if you don't have anything else to watch, rent it. Tiffany was there. It was good seeing her again. I look foward to seeing her tonight. I look foward to emailing her in the future.

It is pretty cute to see the girls get excited about their yu gi oh battle. I get tickled at them. They went to books a million today to trade and battle with the kids in our area. I can't wait to hear about it.

Well must be off to get ready to go work the longest day I have worked since my surgery.


Thursday, January 20, 2005

Work overload

Went back to work last night. Maybe I shouldn't have. I had more pain, other issues, etc. I slept so hard last night that it is unbelievable. I feel somewhat better this morning. I felt ok until I got to work yesterday. Then, within 5 minutes, I was drained. I worked 4 hours. I have a call in to the dr. to see if all the effects that I experienced were ok and normal. It is going to take me some time to get over this funk feeling I guess.

In other news, all is going well in the morgan household. Heidi made the swim team. We are very proud of her. She will be starting in a 10 week class. She will stay there until her strokes are good enough to get her to the end of the pool. Hopefully, by summer, she will be ready to compete in the 8 and under swim meets. It will be fun for both of them.

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

This is me now for those of you who don't know. Posted by Hello
Boy was I have shed some pounds. I found these photo's today. This was about 3 years ago. wow Posted by Hello

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Pardon the Vent

I am just in awe of the audacity of people.
Some people don't want to earn anything anymore. They expect people to take care of them. They want a free ride.

On the other side, you have some people that think they are the bomb. They think they have it all figured out. They want to spew what they know in your face because they think you are not where God wants you to be and he has nominated them to bring that fact to your attention.

I just stand in awe of the whole situation. Why can't people just live there life and not try to change other people. Isn't that really God's job?

Who cares that I have a friend who allows people to take advantage of them by running a boarding house. If that makes that person fill fullfilled so be it. Maybe they don't feel taking advantage of. Maybe that offers them some self worth.

If God wants her to do something different, then want he show her,

I know in mine and Eric's life that God has always guided us. He has been faithful to put us where we can be most effective. Are we perfect? A big NO!, but it is not about being perfect and following a list of rules. It is about having the right heart attitude. We don't need other people throw in a list of legalized rules our way to show us how to live. We have the Bible and the Holy
Spirit. I am not saying that God does use other people to help us. I am just saying that God doesn't rule with an iron fist to you and I right now. His love is more like a father's love to his son.

I guess in my life I am learning to experience God finally. I don't know how completely. I probably never will because I am feeble minded, but I am seeking. I am true seeker of the truth. I know God is real in my life. I know He loves me. I know he sent Jesus to die for me. I believe in that. I know he wants me to show others that love by using the gifts that he has given me. That is all I know. Everything else I could tell you would just be my opinion. I don't believe there is this secret formula to living right. I believe that it differs for all of us.

"If God wants us all to be the same, Why did he make us so different?" Jena Malone (Mary). SAVED

Still Recovering

Yes, I am still recovering from outpatient surgery. I just get up a do a little at a time and then go lay back down. Last night we went out for dinner, just to get out of the house and then headed over to books a million. I was wiped after that . Just totally wiped out. I got a little pale at books a million according to Eric. Came home laid down on the couch and watched a little tv, then it was off to bed.

Yesterday, I watched Oprah (don't tell anybody). I normally don't care for her show, but she had a special on the tsunami and all. It was pretty moving. One of her guest that had actually been in Sri Lanka when it hit, made an intresting comment . He said after going through all of this, I have learned a lot. I have decided that there should not be 2 tragidies through all of this, but that my life has been spared for a reason. I have a purpose in life and must find out what that is. I don't know right now, but I will find out. I have learned to live life by the minute. Every moment is precisous. It was something of that nature. It was amazing to me that through all of that, he learned to sieze the day basically. At that moment when all of that hit, those people were not even assured of the next breath. It made me think that even though a tsunami is not upon me my last breathe could be. What will I use my last breath for. Will I beat down or lift up. What is my purpose? Why am I left here? Who am I supposed to encourage and lift up that I jsut pass by. Just thinking out loud.

Monday, January 17, 2005

Just a Little Recovery Humor.  Posted by Hello

Still Recovering

I am still a little under the weather today. I want to get up and do stuff, but I just don't have the strength to do a whole lot. I spilled something in the floor. Eric offered to clean it up, but I told him I would get it and it wiped me out trying to clean it up. I have been up for about 1:30 doing odd things and now I am ready for a nap. I am trying to build my stength back because e goes back to work tomorrow and I go back to work on Wednesday order pending from the dr. I am waiting for a call from him now. I am very happy with the whole procedure so far and feel very blessed that I am still here. God has given me another opportunity to minster his love to other people. I know that may sound cheesy to some, but I am truly sincere with it.

I am going to try to get some reading in today. Along with Holly, I am reading some classic books that I have never read like Phantom of the Operea, White Fang, little women, etc. It is cool that she is getting old enough to read this type stuff that I love to read.

I look foward to riding my bike again. I figure that will be a couple of weeks away. maybe 4 weeks when I go back to the dr.We will see.

All is well here on the home front. No worries or complaints. It was cool to be able to catch up on some tv and not do anything else for a couple of days. Now I am ready to get back to the normal go and do place, I am pretty independant.

Recover in the fast lane.

Saturday, January 15, 2005

Recovery continued

I am very bloated from the oxygen they gave me I guess. My throat pain is gone. Still haven't felt much pain. I am gaining my energy back slowly. I can get up and get myself something to drink, I can get up and do a few chores. I am trying not to over do it. I probably will skip church tomorrow because it will take a lot of energy just to get ready. We will see. Again thanks for all those prayers and thoughts and food.

Recovery day 2

Up early this morning because I slept much of the day yesterday. I went in and out of sleep anyway. There is no comparison the pain that I usually experience to what I am experiencing now..Usually cycle cramps are over a 10. I would have to say they are about a 2-3. They are just dull. I hurt more in my throat. Everyone that I have taked to said they probably ran a tube down my throat. I am going to try to do without the loracet today. Since I just now woke up, time is the only thing that can tell. I still can't sit up for long periods of time. I get pretty loopie. Speaking of which, I am going to go lay back down.

Friday, January 14, 2005

Surgery complete

I had my surgert today. Other than being comfortable numb for the meds, I am doing ok. I really suprised. I hope tomorrow goes so well.

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Clowns Make Me Happy!!! Smile!!! Posted by Hello

Pardon the reflection

Anytime that I go through surgery or test or anything major, I reflect on my life. It is probably natrual I guess. My surgery is tomorrow morning at 6:15. I have a lot of emotion flowing through me right now. I am happy that hopefully health wise I will feel better after this. We all have concern of being put to sleep. I especially do. On one hand, I know that there is always that chance something may go wrong. I think gosh I am so fortunate to live the life I have already live. I have everything anyone could ever desire on this side of life. On the other hand, I think gosh I have so much to live for. I am very blessed with great husband, great kids,great parents, great family, and great friends.

So, in these few hours before my surgery, all I really have to say is sieze the day. Every day of my life that is what I try to do. Show love to others, just as Christ did. That is what I try to teach my kids. I hope if they ever learn anything from me that is it.

I want to say thanks in advance for all the prayers lifted up for me from so many, it means a lot. I will post as soon as I am feeling better.

In famous words, "I'll be back".

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Alterbridge Rocks!!!!

Went to see them last night. Being musicians, our little group hung out right in front of the sound board. I, however, being a huge tremonti fan had to get a closer glance. I walked around the side of the crowd and got like 3 to 5 feet from Tremonti. He is freaking amazing. It was in his zone. He looks like he is into the crowd, but his is really in the zone. He seems to be enjoying life doing what he loves to do. All the band appears that way. It was amazin to hear miles sing and hit every note. This far into the tour, one might think that he would screw up, but no complaints here. It was a fun time. Props to wes and kim for passing the free tickets our way. Thanks Guys you rock.

2 days till the surgery. I go from being nervous to not caring. I am trying to be very relaxed about it, especially due to the kids.

Saturday, January 08, 2005

Feeling better

Wow it feels good to feel Left work oned day early because I felt bad. Went in early another day because I felt bad. Worked all day. Must work tomorrow. No biggie all in a days work.

I have really been trying to work on my attitude and keep things positive, but it is hard to mix that when you don't feel well. I guess what I am trying to say is that sickness and being positive don't mix. One might ask why be positive. It takes way to much energy to be negative for one.Negative attitudes influence those around you to be negative. My philosophy for the new year. LIVE LIVE, LIVE the happy life. I am tire of feeling guilty and refuse to do it no more. Feeling guilty because I am happy and have a great life. If others don't, I still have compassion, I still care for others, but I don't let them reflect my mood. I want live this way everyday, but that is my goal.

Surgery in 6 days.

Wednesday, January 05, 2005


That is what we need. If you haven't seen that episode of Northern Exposure you probably think that I have lost it for real this time.

Eric got me the first 2 seasons of Northern Exposure on DVD for Christmas. We have almost watched the first season. Hi 0 hi o was some natrual cure for the flu that Marilyn the indian receptionist came up with that cured the whole town including the dr of the flu.

It all started with Heidi to john to tara now it is to eric 6 days later. I don't know if he caught it from them or the gym. He said that the gym was flooded with people yesterday. I am a bit under the weather myself. I have that sinus cold still. WEll maybe we will get over this soon. Time will tell. Wha sucks is that I am supposed to work all weekend. I CAN"T BE SICK ARGH.

Well wishes to my man.

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

Bike riding log 2

Went on our second bike ride of 2005 today. Wow, I remember now why as a kid I loved riding my bike so much. I don't remember however getting sore in unmentionable places. hee hee. Anyway, it was major fun for sure. I need to do oiling on the chain on my bike. It rides well. We traded some speakers or something for this bike from our friend Kevin a couple of years ago I guess and I am just now enjoying it. what is up with that?

Our ride was from our home to the local school. I am going to measure it to see how far it is on my way to or from work one. It is probably about 2 mile round trip. It was quite fun. We took some of the side streets instead of taking the main street so the girls would not have to worry so much about trafic. We went around the school stopped at the playground for a few minutes and then headed back. So we rode a mile, then rested a few minutes then road another mile. That is pretty good. I am anxious to see how this tones my body. I will start doing my new yoga dvd tonight before I go to bed. That should be awesome. It feels good to be good to yourself.

Sickness makes committment fail

I have a horrible sinus cold. When I get like this, I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep. I am a sleeper anyway, but this just makes it worse. Yesterday, I slept in to long to go exercise. I had a ton of stuff to do before Holly's swim practice in the afternoon. So, I thought I would walk in the gym while she practiced. I was just to worn out. Today, I am making myself go walk in just a few minutes. I have to get back on the horse or I am going to loose my metabilism edge. I have been fortunate not to gain weight over the holidays. Thank God for that. I have to get my yoga mentality of peacefulness back that was so interupted over the holidays with family woes. The stress of some family situations probably has attributed to this sickness that I have. I have to get over this cold before I have surgery next week. It is a must. I am sure the yoga and exercise will help the cold and the drugs I am going to get at walmart.

Sunday, January 02, 2005

What a weekend

It was great being off the past couple of days. We had Christmas with Eric's mom this weekend. We spread it out so my sister and law and her husband can come from Atlanta to celebrate and exchange gifts. It was not the best Christmas with them. Heidi got a virus on Thursday. She passed to John who passed to Tara who passed it possible to Eric. Not sure if e has it or not. We will find out tomorrow.He is not feeling well at all.

Tomorrow it is back to the grindstone on our goals. Get out of debt, get in better physical shape and focus on finding and maintaing true happiness not based on physical things. I mean true happiness.

Got a Yoga kit for christmas. It came with some work out dvd's, a mat, a rope, some blocks to help hold poses. It should be oodles of fun to start using.

Went biking on Saturday. Wow, it was at point mallard and we had a great time. the distance was a little long for the girls, but they made it.

Happy New year to anyone who reads this.